..for me to just know that actually everything I see are all there..and i jus need to say them out to score..
I just wanted to make sure patient is stable before anything..so the nx time i will..
nx time I will see and say and think abt the patient's name, gender, date of birth, birth weight, head circumference, G6PD deficiency status, BP, PR, RR, SaO2, plugs, multiple drugs IV infusion, TPN..
then say patient is sleeping and comfortable and not in any distress..
then determine if patient is pre-term or post-term..
by..everything i had said..
and why preterm is so impt?
1) Respiratory distress
2) Jaundice
3) hypothermia
4) hypoglycaemia
5) higher tendency for infection
and stop taking 5 mins to say the last 3..those are the most impt stuffs..good.
then why is the patient on TPN?
because there is some problem with the fetus that it cannot take feeds! Obviously GIT is correct..but esophaegeal and anal atresia are just rare! Infection/sepsis can give also..wad else??
I cant believe i spent 20 mins just on those stuffs above. Shit me
Was on my way home tonight on the bus. Did not want to take a lift because scared the silence, and scared people will be spending a lot efforts to entertain me, and me tired of entertaining people(just for tonight tho), and as usual I am a very paiseh person. Was looking out into the darkness of the streets, misty, cooling, and lonely. Then this song came in.
歌曲：鱼在水里哭
歌手：深白色2人组
我矛盾着无助
很需要你能给我一点点保护
想对你说的话却总说不出
我变成了植物
Thinking about what things that I want to say but cannot say. I realised there's almost none. In front of people, I will say what I want to say. Especially so these days after CSFC when I realised I became more and more vocal, and more and more mature. Actually, since young, even though I do not say much, I only remembered a few moments when things that I really want to voice out but did not. Lesser of these moments these days. None at all. Its not about whether I will say or not. Its more about whether I have anything to say or not. Whether I feel anything about anything to make me want to say anything or not. 我是植物， 行尸走肉。 对身边的事默默无闻， 对眼前的事视而不见， 对周遭的事毫不关心。 没有感觉， 没有体会， 没有思想， 没有心情， 没有需求， 没有要求， 没有坚持， 没有信念。 无心， 无神， 无色身香味触法。 Was wondering how did I become someone like that. They say 无欲则刚. I think so too, but then, for someone like me, its just pure sad.
I remembered that this song was commented as soapy. I agree with it entirely, thats why its only at 1140pm coming home after so much things looking out into pitch darkness Bishan park then I can fully appreciate the soappiness. Wah just feel like plunging my head into a pool of water and cry in it. 鱼在水里哭.
Somehow, despite all my wishes, I wish that things will go as you wish. Then, it can save us all the trouble of having to "惹出来做这个费心劳神， 呕心沥血的事" Quoted from 三国, talking about 徐元直推荐诸葛孔明给刘玄德。 Somehow, deep within the deepest wishes, I wish that things can be kind of like that, just like that.
I was saying, how do you know when you had picked the correct present for someone? Thats when after you decided on it, the more you think about it, the happier you are. The more you look at it, the more you use it, the more you are amazed that how good it is, and how the correct choice you had made. Same, goes to when you do something correct. Same, goes to the correct person, the more you been with the person, the more you know what I am saying.
Suddenly don't wish to be hot knife through butter. The smarter I become, I can still never be as smart as you, then might as well don't, might as well be 老实, 要做到淳厚质朴， 心无渣滓， 才能分心二用.
Less happy post if you happened to realised.
I think she is quite sweet and cheerful (I need a 傻大姐). Haha did not want to post the youtube of her performance, because not so sweet.
Cheers!
Yang =)
Someone mentioned very aptly "We are here, just to meet our clients earlier than all the rest of the undergraduates". 一语惊醒梦中人. Many times I fall into my own very little inferiority complex. Facing the hectic-ness in ward rounds, demandings of senior consultants, lack of sleep on my own, I become closed. Closed. The last thing that I want in such a time of change. Open up. I guess everything is ready. The whole universe had conspired already, for something that should had happened in my life. Ready just for me to perform and rise to the occasion. This time, 我可以.
That sentence summarizes clinical years, academic years can be summarized by one activity, "learning vocabularies".
Things can be as simple as what you want to be. Every man for himself. These two things finally shook their hands in my mind. Life is but, the simplest being, death. Everything else, is just some how some sort of complications that we want to get ourselves into. Responsibilities, faith, trust, care and concern, love, everything is for a better good, yet, complicates our lives, for the better good of all of us, really good? Things change as time progresses, no doubt what is good is always good I realized in the end, and what is old time truth will be true (bah.) but without those bad things, where can I see the goodness, bad things are but, for the better good of all of us. Whole universe conspired to make me a better man.
Someone commented not understanding why people like to listen to soppy music. Neither understanding, why do people love until so sad. I know. I know why you don't understand. Because you see things differently, different from all of us. The most important thing to do in life, I might say, is to keep self happy, or rather, is to do what we think needs to be done. This is because I dislike the idea that you said that these people are happy to be sad in love. I think, its more like, they throw their needs in as they got swept by love. Its just like, why we curse and get frustrated when we study for exams.
As for soppy songs, for me, its all dreaming about things that had never happened in my life, except for, Eason - k 歌之王。
Kind of forgot what are my hobbies again. I was thinking, why I seem less happy and carefree when I was in university. One big reason I must say, is that I don't sing songs so often, like sing anywhere, unlike in younger days. Closed liao. If changes go on as it is, I should be looking into a better life. I tend to give a lot to other people, without thinking that there should be anything back. But when someone like that comes along, giving me more than what I give and not expecting anything back, I tend to not know what to do. I don't know how to handle myself. Opps.
My mother described me as "冷热无常". She said she saw that in my palmistry too. That is how I will say myself too. I have my own reasons, though not rational at all. "Next time better time, next deal better deal." -my 座右铭 when I play Settlers of Catan.
I want my 座右铭 for CSFC to be, "Ok!, Lets Go!"
武士的一分 was nice, nicer than nada sou sou (haha). At least, that scene was super super super exciting and breath stopping. "Uncle do you have increase in heart beat and shortness of breath?" Like I can see us sitting up and heart pounding. I so so so so much like takuya kimura! Haha. He is like how suave, how determined, how I want to be like him. There's always a purpose for everything, just that when and whether you see it or not. Now I see my purpose. Only those who put in everything to break through everything will finally get the simplest things in life. Thanks for being there.
Had not been blogging lately. Too busy studying heh. Paiseh. Anyway, yesterday a friend asked me whether I am happy these days. Then I asked back why ask. My friend explained that I had not been blogging lately, so does that mean that I am not happy. Hm. I thought for a while, and thought that that actually might be the case. Blarh. Haha nothing to be unhappy about lah. So its yet another happy day!::)
Actually had wanted to blog one, got some stuffs in mind wanted to blog, but then, too busy, or too bored and played too much minesweeper.
Oh first thing first, haha, I am happy with my results. I passed my Pharmaco CA1! Although its supposed to be the easiest pharmaco CA. I passed my Microb CA2! I passed my Patho CA1!! And still got what. Haha Patho CA2 coming soon on 8th Feb!! Ok. Thats like so long later. So for the time being just be happy still. Till then, lost in Denisecarolineland.
During the dark hours trapped in Marktaylorland, I asked a good friend of mine, a really silly question which I thought was really silly of me to ask later. But silly me at that time thought its a good question to ask this good friend. It just happened that this friend had been gushing about this particular person that we know but not familiar with. And this friend those days had been asking me what is fun to do in Orchard road. So being bored from trying to navigate in MTL, I asked him this question.
"So, after you get married, will you go China and bao1 er4 nai3?"
"I think thats a very stupid thing to do. Why would I want to do that to destroy my family? Even if I am very horny, but after I get married, I will tell myself to change and cannot be horny anymore! Because at that time my perspective will be different! Im no longer looking for a wife, or looking for a girlfriend or another sex partner because I know that will destroy my family! The me after marriage will be someone with a different mindset! I want to maintain my family, I want to make my family happy, and earn alot of money! Im going to earn 75k a day! So that I can use 50 dollar notes to wipe my backside! US$ 50 somemore!"
Opps write too much, hope nobody can guessed who said that. Anyway I think what my friend said is really true! Like, please lah, grow up lah stupid horny adults. If you want to get married, then jolly well settle down and think about whats really the most important things to you now. Some people try so hard also cannot find true love, and you are getting married. Please know how to identify and treasure what's the most important things now. Alot people, including myself, do not know that and had been regretting for life, only to regret later because we spent too much time regretting. Boo. Thats why I realised how silly am I to ask that silly question.
Anyway, another day I was talking to a friend of mine (whom I forgot who is it) about another topic. Starting from silly me.
"I think I'll try go clubbing once lah, tho I think its not good for me. I think I wont like lah. Not my type. Go once at least see see look look know abit should be good."
"No lah, if I were you, I wont go at all. I think its not good lah, so wont go liao. Just like will you try smoking? You wont try smoking because you know already smoking is not good and you wont like it, so why go n try?"
Wahseh. I like that point of view. Thats why I say I am silly. I am so naive and immature in front of all of them. And stupid. Boo.
Another day I was talking to a friend of mine (hm, this sounds like 5 incoherent blog posts), someone quite brainy. Starting silly me.
"Do you think that tong2 ju1 is a good idea? So that you can really make sure that the person is correct before you get married?"
"I dont think so bah, it sounds good on the surface but cheapens the whole idea of marriage, like can jus try try and play around. If you look at like olden matchmaking, people can still be very much happy after marriage, tho they most prob din noe each other at all in the first place. I guess we are less tolerant now. Ohwell, if he is meant to be then he will be, there's no nid for trial mah. No point."
Thats so true. Maybe we are less tolerant now. Maybe there's too much ways out now. Maybe we don't trust yuan2 fen4 now. But I trust yuan2 fen4. Because my love will rely very much on the feeling of yuan2 fen4. Does yuan2 fen4 = serendipity? If yuan2 fen4 bring us together, then it means we r destined to be together, and its us together to solve all the problems and changes and never let go. And I trust 天意. If its 天意, then its 终究已注定. I know the saying that human can win sky. But then, although I really think that sky had been always playing me, but there's nothing to win or lose. Nothing to compete. We are one. 人活于天地之间，行思顺于气流，逆其而逞威，有如损自根本。 This is my weakpoint I know. But its something that I cant throw away too.
So yep. So many mature and smart friends around me. So happy!!::)