Thursday, April 22, 2010 Labels: 2010, good fwens who scold me, MV, song lyrics, travel, 此生阿~, 流浪
JAMBO AFRIKAA!!
This had been the most challenging, most tiring, most shag, most miss home, most 迷失自己 yet most eye opening, most gained mentally and spiritually, most 找回自己 backpacking trip. One word to describe it: peer-less.
Start
The whole trip started off with the cheapskate gang wanting to save on 400 bucks so we landed in Nairobi, Kenya instead of going straight into Tanzania, and at the same time favourable because my xiao gu happened to be studying psychology in university in nairobi, and because of her participation in church activities there, she is in charge of a large compound which was luckily empty on the nights that we stayed in. So everything in the world lined up properly for us to land in nairobi.
Just to note, the flight from Singapore to Doha was the MOST CHILDISH airline!!! of course having seating arrangements that is in columns instead of rows did not help very much. i was asked to change my seat so that an angmo couple can sit together, and in so doing was sitting in close proximity to AML cripz. Waha!
Doha is an experience which shall be elaborated later.
Nairobi
Nairobi is quite a scary place. Heard that there's alot of robbery. Please do not travel outside after sunset. Nothing bad happened to us, we were really careful. Every landed property is heavily fenced and barbwired and has security with gun! this includes the foryu chinese restaurant. Wow. Well. We did not really go see the slums, only the richer parts of nairobi, and went to the supermarket and places that expats go. Well. Expensive. Hm. Its nice of xiao gu to accomodate us, and she is really a very good host, I dont host well, need to learn more.
Moshi
Epic bus ride that lasted 10 hours. In this trip the word epic will be used many many times, many many times. Hurhur. come some pics.
Nothing much to say about this bus ride, jus that when u get into tanzania u can feel the difference, the massai pple start coming out in bunches hahaha. Massai training school. hahaha.
Moshi is this small place that is near kilimanjaro, the roof of africa. This, together with Arusha, are two sites where people attack kili from. Haha. We stayed in buffalo hotel in Moshi, and we patronise the indo-italian restaurant opposite every night, nice pizza and nice spags, and nice everything, happy. The mama shop opposite buffalo should be in lonely planet oso, just to make the experience complete. Buffalo was quite an experience, loads of mites and insects, first time i used mosquito net, hahaha. Breakfast was another poleh poleh experience. And ofcus, the black face. waha.
Later we went to eat local foods with the guides, ugali was stopped at 2nd try, there's a chagas' dish that make use of unriped banana, this is very interesting dish, and very nice diblo dish later. hahahaha.
Kili
This is kilimanjaro, dun really think it shows the peak that we wanted to attack, but get a few of the iceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...this picture was taken at the shira camp. We took a 7 day machame route, which makes us much better in acclimatization to get to the peak. Well. i din lah. Haha. The route towards machame camp = SHAG! its mainly rainforest. yep. u jus keep walking, keep walking, keep walking, then there's this clearing area......and a sign that says no smoking..and turn a round and yea its the camp. Haha. SHAG.
The second camp is called Shira camp. I can only describe walking there in one word = SHAG. I cant remember much about walking there, besides...its jus alot of stones..kinda little vegetation..everywhere is everlasting love..SHAG..
the look of clouds from shira camp. hahahaha!
Then its SHAG time! After breakfast in shira camp, we went for a long walk..walk..walk..walk..walk..walk..everlasting love..walk..walk..walk..walk..翻越了千山万水， 我也要找到你呀。。。then after tt some of us decided to attack the lava tower..wahhhhh..wahhhh..wahhhh..wahhhh..wahhhh..ok walk upwards is someday will reach there..wads after tt is most exciting!!..we started to follow this trail of water downwards..jump! jump! jump! jump! jump! later we realised..we were jumping down along a waterfall..wahbiangzzzzzzzzzzzz!!:) Then we finally reached Barangu camp.
After breakfast is even more exciting!! Cos we attacked the breakfast wall!! this was when it really really felt like mountain climbing..i was kinda happy tt i had some mountain climbing exp in RI..but regretted not doing more..well..this is the REAL fun..hahaha jus imagine your eyes looking at the only place where u can step..if u cant step on it, then thats it..and if u look at the other places..tts the end..only 1 step at a time..tts how FUN it is! haha lucky i din die. bleagh.
then after that much more walking along the moon-like surface..walk walk walk walk finally we reached THE BARAFU camp..where the wind blows like freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..Its damn cold..damn windy (we were eating in the tent and the tent was almost blown away)..and i vomitted like freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..wah i nv had my stomach churn and squeeze every single drop of hcl out before..SHAG FUCK!
2am at BARAFU camp, we started on the journey to attack the peak.
手牵手
一步两步三步四步
望著天 看星星
一颗两颗三颗四颗 连成线
背著背默默许下心愿
看远方的星星否听的见
看远方的星如果听的见
它一定实现
I wish..i wish..i wish I PASS MBBS!!!!!
Stella Point is where i end.
hahaha i look qt fat here..bleagh..
Reached stella point at around 1130, by that time the other guys were already attacking Uhuru peak..so din go with them..well..its alright..cos after that is really WTF.
为什么没有人跟我说下山比上山难?!?!?!?!
I think its just because i got too shagged out from climbing up..and my body totally broke down after coming down..bleagh..
Serengeti
Serengeti in swahili means "endless plains"..indeed..after hanging out 3 days in it..we only managed to cover a small area only..indeed endless..the timing that we visit is one of the most boring seasons..not only there's v little tourist around..there's v little movement around..but thanks to good grace we managed to see all the big 5s!:)
Well jus in case you din noe wads the big 5..they are namely..leopard/cheetah, lion, water buffalo, elephant, rhino!!:) haha! Other things we saw are namely giraffes, gazelle, impalas, wilderbeast, mehmehs etc etc etc....and honeymoon lions ROAR!!
Ngorongoro crater
Ngorongoro crater is this roundish crater that was formed after the eruption of a mountain that was thought to be greater than kilimanjaro..it is really a 世外桃园， 人间仙境。 damn good. damn good. animals that come in forgot about going out. plants that come in. thrive. i finally got to understand wad it means by 桃花源。
Subsequently we went to Lake Maryana, wahlan eh the van got stuck. it got stuck. stuck. stuck in a mud pool that was deceptively shallow. well. luckily got fwenly pple driving van to help us pull our van out of deep shit. its really deep shit. hehe.
can u see the change in color in distance..thats the lake extending into infinity..终于和天在地平线交会。
ohohoh..running hippo is one of the most cute things on earth. thats assuming they are running away from you in a distance. well. most scary if its running towards u. Hohoho.
during the trip..i alws wonder why the clouds in africa seems to be more lazy than usual..look at them..they seem to be lingering at a lower altitude than those in singapore..and they linger so lazily..so lazily..poleh poleh..there's no rush in afrika!
Zanzibar
Wah the ship ride to zanzibar island cos 70USD!!! CHOR++++..but i dun regret going..hahaha we went to stay in kendwa..and it really ROCKS! jus that the weather is abit the chuis..
kendwa waters are quite good..but qy says that philipines are better..and cheaper..ofcus..hahaha snorkelling was a good experience..and we saw dolphins! whee!!!
Rest of the trip
In between the many places we shuttle using buses, which are bearable yet unbearable sometimes. there's alws a constant need to hide myself away from the sun to prevent sunburnt. and some of the movies shown along the way really make me laugh. like. not farnie. haha. movies like yellow banana expectation (with the ultra violent rays) and point of no return 2..really hilarious. wow.
doha is just nothing much to do there. ha.
the food in africa is rather interesting. ugali is made of corn flour and is this thing that resembles our satay rice..makes u very very full..comes with nice sauce tho..but i dun really fancy it..there's oso rice..and bread..and this chagas' food which they use unriped banana which i had a hand in trying to peel it..haha qt hard..but interesting..shld haf tou shi abit from diblo..the last night dinner was superb!
during this trip..i also thought about alot of things..i thot about the past relationship..which is already so distant so far..i thot about my ambition..which is on the way of brewing..i thot about my life..which can definitely be better..and i thot about the next 5 years..and settled it..:)
All in all, trip to africa had been a great eye opener..and i did things that i never had imagined myself doing..and dun really imagine i will be doing them in the future..haha..which is good issnt it? for now.:)
Full of mayday in my trip!:)
Cheers!
Yang
right from the start
At this point in time..i wld like to bring time back to the very start of the trip..even before the trip was planned..even before the pple visioned the trip..when i started earning the money that i spent for the trip..for this 3 wks..i spent almost 5.3k sing..this is a very large sum of money to me and i am totally broke now..but i wld jus like to say a very big thank you..even if you dunno its you..thank you to you for directly and indirectly make this trip ever possible..if not becos of you..your help, your encouragement, your understanding, your presence, your support, your scoldings, your love and your leaving..i wld haf not been able to soar..
and jus something that i had wanted to blog but leave it till the end. well. i realised for the first time in my life during this trip that i nid someone to control me..there were 2 significant fwens in my life who had made great difference in my life..and both had scolded me for some reason or another all my foolishness..well..i had more good fwens..but jus these two who really made deep impression in me.............i wonder...
4/22/2010 06:13:00 PM
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 Labels: 2010, Angel., Brothers, MV, poem, read, song lyrics, 了解了~
Ramblings.
众人笑我太疯癫，我笑众人看不穿
Thats the line.
是否
是否这次我将真的离开你
是否这次我将不再哭
是否这次我将一去不回头
走向那条漫漫永无止境的路
是否这次我已真的离开你
是否泪水已干不再流
是否应验了我曾说的那句话
情到深处人孤独
多少次的寂寞挣扎在心头
只为挽回我将远去的脚步
多少次我忍住胸口的泪水
只是为了告诉我自己
我不在乎
情到深处人孤独
最近看了一篇影评讲说应该先去拜读一下论语， 再回头看老子。 而不是我现在这样。 深得我心。
Yang
3/17/2010 11:53:00 PM
Sunday, January 31, 2010 Labels: 2010, MV, song lyrics, 了解了~
Is this why?
In the continuous bid to find out the answer to the greatest question in my life, I had been thinking. Thanking about nothing. So I get no answer. It seems this is really why. As spoken by Jolin.
听比说得多 不怕我罗嗦
知道我难过 陪着我沉默
手机桌布只有我 很多甜蜜小动作
自己吃饭没胃口 刷卡之前先问我
喜欢我朋友 也会爱我的狗
懂环保爱地球 保护我像英雄
总是大方介绍我 什么节日都记得
陪我减肥吃苹果 帮我买口红
诚实的嘴 可靠的肩 温柔的眼
会玩会工作 会疯会生活
会下厨会运动 会爱会做梦
又像男孩又成熟 对我大方自己抠
教我绝招打电动 什么都有我
诚实的嘴 可靠的肩 温柔的眼
I had always be wrong. I had always been deficient. Its not good enough to be me. Its not good enough to be myself. Its not good enough to be there. It is about taking over.
Yang
1/31/2010 06:35:00 PM
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Kelong
With the right crowd, the fun just doesnt stop!! Caught my first 2 fishes! hahaha! and played mahjong! ZOMG!!
Kelong is also the place to revise the songs that you know that has seawaves.
笑傲江湖 Swordsman (1990)
導演：胡金銓、徐克
《滄海一聲笑》
作詞：黃霑 作曲：黃霑
滄海一聲笑 滔滔兩岸潮
浮沉隨浪只記今朝
蒼天笑 紛紛世上潮
誰負誰勝出天知曉
江山笑 煙雨遙
濤浪濤盡紅塵俗事知多少
清風笑 竟惹寂寥
豪情還賸了一襟晚照
蒼生笑 不再寂寥
豪情仍在痴痴笑笑
啦~~
Woohoo!!~
Yang=)
10/22/2009 12:12:00 PM
Sunday, October 18, 2009 Labels: 2009, MV, song lyrics, 会过去的~
若你碰到他
歌手：蔡健雅
我的脆弱坚强 互相作战
理性与感性 失去平衡感
不想让自己 活在过去的遗憾
问宇宙 他是否还爱我吗
这问题 早就有答案
若你碰到了 替我问候他
告诉他 我过得很美满
已忘记他 已把泪水全部擦乾
若你碰到了 替我问候他
祝福他和他的另一半
不在乎他 不再爱也不再等待
就这样吧 若你碰到他
爱 没有绝对 虽曾经以为
我终於体会 爱不能倒退
该让它颓废 收起心碎
就这样吧 若你碰到他
就这样吧 若你碰到他
是谁， 让我伤透了心， 然后又重新再来， 找到自己？
Yang
10/18/2009 01:22:00 AM
Tuesday, October 06, 2009 Labels: 2009, MV, song lyrics, 会过去的~
期待花火
五月天 阿信 & 丁噹
作詞：阿信
作曲：阿信v
編曲：嚴爵
無所謂短暫 無所謂永久
無所謂快樂 會緊接著傷痛
無所謂揮霍 無所謂衝動
只要能曾夠經感動
寫一句短詩 寫一部小說
只要一秒 精彩就能夠雋永
寫一種回憶 無論過多久
我都能夠微笑流淚
漫長人生原本像是沙漠
卻在你的腳下長出綠洲
命運結束了沉默 夜空炸開了花朵
我們很有默契一起抬起了頭
天空 正綻放無數花火
短暫美麗的花火 沒有空去想 明天以後
如果 愛情是一場花火
一閃即逝的花火 我也要去追求
什麼是折磨 什麼是享受
在愛裡折磨 我都會享受
什麼是付出 什麼是收獲
什麼飛蛾總是撲火
誰算是貧窮 誰算是富有
誰打翻鑽石 在夜空揮霍
誰改變了我 讓我終于能
擺脫平凡的那個我
漫長人生原本像是沙漠
卻在你的腳下長出綠洲
命運結束了沉默 夜空炸開了花朵
我們很有默契一起抬起了頭
天空 正綻放無數花火
短暫美麗的花火 沒有空去想 明天以後
如果 愛情是一場花火
一閃即逝的花火 我也要去追求
天空 正綻放無數花火
短暫美麗的花火 火光下和你 緊緊相擁
如果 愛情是一場花火
一閃即逝的花火 我也要去追求
Rap:
我們還有多少的時間能蹉跎
我們還有多少的時間能相擁
還能等多久 還能愛多久
還能夠讓花火 灼熱燦爛多久
我想在最后， 我只是输给一些一些一些一些些， 无关紧要的东西。 这就是所谓的没有缘分。 有过花火就好。 谁稀罕呢？ 恶魔...
Yang
10/06/2009 10:43:00 PM
Tuesday, August 11, 2009 Labels: 2009, MV, song lyrics, 会过去的~
Tough day. Argh.
I reached home at 10pm today. I left home at 6.30am and last night I only slept at 1am becos my computer asked me to do so. Well. I studied in school, ate my bento cold noodle which was not enuff for lunch, then went to do the FUN simulation thingy. ohwell. after which i went to run 7.4km around NUS up the hill and down the slope. Well. Then i rushed for tuition and ended up still haven eat my dinner now. Tough.
Argh. Not the worst tt i had experienced. At least today i can do a mind over body and get things done.
想当年。 是很久很久很久很久很久以前的事了。 那时候， 真的是连精神力量都被完全摧毁了。 同时也被劳其筋骨， 饿其体肤， 空乏其身。 自己就像行尸走肉一般， 心里面只知道， 该做的事， 就好好的做。 其他的事， 不是一时可以解决的， 那就先搁下来。 就单凭"该做的对的好好做"这个信念， 我就这样又活过来了。 其他的事， 后来后来， 也就过去了。 不过， 那时， 真的很辛苦， 真的很辛苦， 真的很辛苦。 所谓的苦其心志， 就是这样吧。
不敢勉强你， 只好为难自己， 我为难我自己。
真的无法想像那个时候是怎么熬过来的。 也许是还年轻。 也许是不知好歹。 刚刚在回来的路上， 看到一对印度籍夫妻， 两个人扛着大包小包的东西坐巴士， 坐到站了过马路继续等巴士坐。 印度女人拿着东西回头看着老公拿着东西过马路露出笑容， 也许是我一厢情愿， 这就是一起吃苦的幸福吧。 怎么了?
什么是该做的事， 什么是不该做的事， 现在的我， 应该好好的去想一想。 少过一年就要毕业了， 让我再想一想。 对的事， 就要去做， 就是该做的事， 道理， 不就是这么简单吗。
阳。
8/11/2009 10:51:00 PM
Sunday, August 09, 2009 Labels: 2009, MV, song lyrics, 会过去的~
我说服我自己 没有我你会更顺心..
是不甘心 还是依然爱着你...
Haix. TTM.
Yang
8/09/2009 09:36:00 PM
Sunday, July 12, 2009 Labels: 2009, Brothers, jackycheung, mahjong, MV, song lyrics
妳知不知道
ok there is no doubt that wen bie lyrics has not much meanings. hurhur.
The other day was Jacky Cheung's birthday. 48th birthday leh! haha ofcus immediately i sms-ed ryan to wish him happy birthday. Haha. As usual old joke from the past but seriously ryan is damn ge shen! haha. and 933 morning show played this song to celebrate his birthday..
词：李偲菘
自从我第一次看到你的时候
我就偷偷的喜欢你
这种感觉我一直深深的埋藏在心里
不敢让你知道
直到那一天
当我们要分离的时候
你突然跑来向我说再见
看着你远去的那一眼
我心里忍不住想对你说
我真的好喜欢你
你知道吗
of course this is not for ryan. haha cheesy lyrics! but nice i guess?
well finally mars has left me ever since yesterday and not coming backa anytime soon. This past month had been a great mth with lotsa things coking up and lotsa anger thrown at other pple. Thanks so much to the people who are immediate around me for being understanding and acknowledging that this is a shitty time for me. Lotsa household issues settled too! HOPEFULLY! ok today is a new day of the shitty days yet to come! hahaha m5 mah ofcus must work hard cant slack.
I realised. There's alot of stuffs tt i never realise. Either becos im stupid or nobody had ever revealed them to me. Its always abt taking risk. and risk is probability complicated by how much u can afford to lose. and ofcus, luck, which is always so obvious. Haha. I dunno wad im toking about again. I think i can classify this under random words. Hm. had been trying to re-vamp my labels thingy but its so hard. Cos when i read my old post i oso dun understand wads going on. Ok this paragraph is about mahjong. The last paragraph is about horoscope. And the rest is for ryan.
wah shit im qt pissed off..cos i jus typed alot of things and they r gone..tmd stupid IE..ok i noe i shldnt use IE anymore its so unrealiable..but wadeva.
okok so i wanted to tell about wad i was really thinking for the last paragraph..basically i was playing mahjong..then in the last bei feng bei i wanted to diao zeng qt badly cos i had been losing money..so wad happened is tt i haf 2 tais by flowers alr..and i was closing with a chou pin hu waiting for either of 2 cards to complete the game..this was in v early part of the game..so i waited and waited and waited and waitedx10000 for the cows come home..but in the end someone else won..like..the question is..when do u decide to discard the comfort zone and do something different?
i guess wads wrong is jus my stupid delusion of comfort zone as well as suayness..well..as wad most pple will tell u..the right card will bound to come after u discard away ur tiles..well..tts true..very true..almost 100% sure..but..tt shldnt be the reason why we dun discard the tiles..so after a long winded discusssion jus now which was deleted..ive come up with the following conclusions..
to win..is the only real comfort zone..having the perfect game in a perfect situation waiting for 2 tiles to win chou pin hu is jus as good as waiting for 1 tile is just as good as not waiting for any tiles to win..ok lah slightly better abit..but not deemed comfortable at all..all these situations demands us to be as vigilant..as tactical to evaluate everything and weigh the risks..so having the perfect situation doesnt mean we can jus sit and wait..hahaha sit and wait is the perfect formula for losing issnt it?
so for my case..cos its still early in the round..so mebbe after waiting for 4-5 turns of picking cards..and if i dun hu..i shld start considering changing tiles..cos this meant tt i had 4 chances of zi mo..and 12 chances of someone fang pao..if by now i havent win..it jus means tt the cards are very dear to my fwens..so i shldnt and wldnt and cldnt snatch them from them rite! hahahaha! yet! i shld consider the risks of throwing my tiles out to change..lest change tile to win becomes a fang pao..wah then damn sian diao..hahaha
so after weighing all the risks..then we can decide whether to throw..or to carry on waiting..at the end of the day..not all games are meant for u to win..some games are for big win if u r good..some games are for small wins if u r very very very very good..and some games are if its not meant for u to win..the least u can do is not to fang pao..hahahaha..sad to say..this is the zui gao jing jie for me now..
in mahjong..aside from skills..pple benefit on good luck..but good luck from heaven doesnt come all the time..good luck from other pple's mistakes do come more regularly..so wadeva u do..try to harvest on them..and its supposed to be win game until proven otherwise..hahaha
actually..in my situation..waiting for 2 cards is the same as having a 9 tong and 8 tong at the start of the game..its a trap..u think tt soon the 7 tong will come..but then..it never come for me 80% of the time..it jus gives a false sense of reassurance..reassurance tt that will be a set tt is going to be completed..it traps u into thinking tt its a set completed..and sets u into the expectation tt it will be completed..then u get trapped inside..u cant give it up..then u go into this whirlpool of altered behaviour..u forget to weigh the risks..and u fang pao..and fail..
jus like my mahjong master shi fu alws say..the game is fluid..every tile in hand shld contribute in everyway to the eventual winning..no tiles shld be chucked at the side deeming a complete set..the mindset of winning with 4 sets of 3 and a set of pair is no good at all!
its a trap..a trap of reassurance..a trap of comfort..a trap tt things will be done when its not going to..and u think tt its done alr..a trap tt will raise ur expectation..a trap tt will change ur attitude..a trap tt will change ur thinking and mindset..a trap tt will alter ur behaviour..a trap tt will change u into a totally different person..then..u start to lose urself..u start to become different..u start to get obsessed..u start to do things tt u wont normally do..
so moral of story is..recognise register and remember traps in mahjong..identify the potential traps early..and..
jian hao jiu shou..
Imba leh jus found these.
Xiao zhu is like super farnie lah! hahahaha and i think its really an honour and glory to sing side by side with ge shen. Haha im really glad tt i had this honour and glory to sing with RYAN! hahahaha:)
So this is wad happened on xiaozhu's concert! Nice rite!
Here comes the imba original. Hahaha go listen to it everyday and sing during ktv ok!:)
Cheer!
Yang =)
7/12/2009 11:34:00 AM
Wednesday, July 08, 2009 Labels: 2009, caoge, music, song lyrics, stupid thing i do, 会过去的~, 失落, 此生阿~
万法自然。
寂寞先生
作詞：小寒 作曲：曹格
你的笑容是恩惠 世界難得那麼美
我可以無所謂 寂寞卻一直掉眼淚
Oh Im not okay
我假裝無所謂 才看不到心被擰碎
我答应自己 从今天起 不会再看到我的憔悴
TTM.
恶魔在身边。
7/08/2009 07:34:00 PM
Thursday, May 01, 2008 Labels: song lyrics
傻瓜。
他们说， 有一种声音， 能够唱进人们的心里。 我听到了这种声音， 只可惜， 不是身边的人。 原唱者， 反而唱得的， 太过温柔。
温岚-傻瓜
其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说
其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭
傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留
傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜
似曾相识， 好久不见呀， 甜言蜜语。 这几年的我， 好像都在沉浸在一种默默无语， 喃喃自语， 像个傻瓜， 猫不理的状态。
阳
5/01/2008 11:25:00 PM
Wednesday, April 23, 2008 Labels: Random words., song lyrics, Who is it..
那天清晨。
那天清晨， 下着毛毛细雨。 我在巴士车站等巴士。 我就站在雨落不到的地方， 风却把雨水刮在身上， 弄得点点滴滴。 就在我独自矗立在风雨中， 孤单的等着那空荡荡的巴士。 有个人从远方缓缓跑来。 下着绵绵细雨， 一个身影缓缓得向我跑来。 那个时候的我， 广播正在悠悠荡荡的播放这首歌。
杨宗纬-对爱渴望
作词:管启源作曲:蔡健雅
条件都已放宽精采又怎样
爱情的使用量尽量减半
睡得太晚梦太频繁
别来烦帮个忙
独自呢喃天都快亮又回想
无尽无尽的夜晚不打烊的小酒馆
没有人急着回家没有人想各自回家
无尽无尽的夜晚爱在舌尖上打转
测试他对我有多疯狂
原来只是精神上
对爱渴望那么向往
那么困难
早适应了孤单孤单不怎样
爱人的使用量尽量健康
那么困难
对爱渴望对爱渴望
那么向往那么困难
对爱渴望对爱渴望
我独自的站着看着那孤单的身影跑来， 下着连连细雨， 风起了， 凌晨的阳光还没有来， 我在阳光还没有进来的凌晨就在等巴士， 他在阳光还没有进来的凌晨就在跑步， 我们的阳光什么时候会来呢? 现在， 猜猜那个人是谁?
干杯!
阳:)
4/23/2008 11:33:00 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008 Labels: Angel., Patience, Random words., song lyrics
庆幸。
其实我要写的东西也并不像主体所标示的那么美好。 先说一些旧的东东。
最近（其实是蛮久了）我想通了一些东西。 一个人的价值， 其实是一个乘算题。 而那个人的本事， 就是这乘算题里的数目。 一个人只有某些本事大， 是到不了哪里去的， 因为只要有一样是零， 那满盘是零。 真正本事大的人， 除了他出名的那样本事以外， 他的所有本事， 都是数一数二的。 这才是真正的本事。 身为一个普通人的我， 其实也没有什么好祈求的。 只希望自己可以每一样本事都有一些数目， 至少乘起来不会是零。 也在暗暗的希望， 有一样本事， 能够大过多数人。 贪心的人是做不了主的。
你知道吗? 我的今天从昨天开始。 七早八早就起来了， 忙这个忙那个， 先是去教补习， 然后去朋友家交待一些东西。 然后庆祝了两个朋友的生日。 然后就开始在医院里忙到转透透。 其实也不是这么忙， 开始的时候是吧， 后来情况就越来越慢了， 然后我就开始越来越慢了。 这应该是我做过的nitecall当中最垂的一次吧， 因为真的很忙， 后来又真的很慢， 所以真的很垂。 这也应该是我睡得最遭的一次。 你能想象吗， 我睡了三个钟头， 每半个钟头我就醒一次， 还一直做恶梦， 真的是惨。 后来教补习的时候也是在半睡半醒的状态。 我真的很希望， 这是我这一生当中睡得最遭的一次， 永远永远也不要再这样了。
当我睡到是时候的时候， 我不自禁的唱了这首歌:
林宥嘉: 走钢索的人
走在半空中要人命的风
就快要把我吹落
你在那一头说你不爱我
我挂在风里颤抖
走钢索的人不害怕牺牲
只求你一句爱我
往前是解脱后退是自由
我应不应该回头
风吹痛我双眼我看不清楚
我平衡不了躲在我心里的苦
我要给你幸福你蛮不在乎
你爱不爱我会决定我下一步
往前是冷漠后退是寂寞
干脆我坠落
回忆在左手未来在右手
谁又会同情我
走钢索的人不害怕牺牲
只求你一句爱我
往前是解脱后退是自由
我应不应该回头
风吹痛我双眼我看不清楚
我平衡不了躲在我心里的苦
我要给你幸福你蛮不在乎
你爱不爱我会决定我下一步
往前是冷漠后退是寂寞
干脆我坠落
回忆在左手未来在右手
谁又会同情我
老天爷是公平的， 当他给你屎吃的时候， 就会有什么优待。 真庆幸。
干杯!
阳=)
4/13/2008 07:17:00 PM
Saturday, April 12, 2008 Labels: Random words., song lyrics
Ces't La Vie
梁静如的歌Ces't La Vie的前奏有这么一段的旁白:
ne laisse pas le temps te décevoir
ll ne peut être conquis
dans la tristesse dans la douleur
aujourd'hui, demain
au fil du temps le temps c'est la vie
看不懂吗? 我也不懂。 问宁奇吧。 好啦， 好啦， 告诉你。
别因为时间而感到沮丧
它是永远无法被征服的
不管是在悲伤里在痛苦中
今天明天年复一年
时间它头也不回地往前走它就是人生
对吗? 宁奇?
老天爷是很公平的， 至少他会尽量， 不象我这么的白痴。 当他给你屎的时候， 他也会给你一些优待。 只是， 你至少要把那堆屎给吃下去。 有时候， 那个优待是你可以吃少一点， 又或者是不用吃。 有些时候， 是给你一点糖吃， 但是还要吃屎。 吃屎其实也没这么糟， 只是吃的时候有点难受， 有点难过。 吃了之后才觉得人生蛮有意义的。 我吃过屎， 你有吃过吗? 糖吃起来也比较甜， 整个人生忽然间变得很光明， 吃屎真的是太棒了！！！Woohoo!!
报完恩， 就能走了吗? 你还要我怎么样， 做牛做马到下辈子?
干杯！
Yang =)
4/12/2008 01:31:00 PM
Sunday, March 09, 2008 Labels: 2008, huangchengyeyun, song lyrics
夜韵 2008
回家的时候在巴士上好好的理清了头绪， 就让我好好从头说起。
先是在去的旅途上， 好好地听了杨宗纬 - 洋葱。
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现
你会讶异
你是我 最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸
你会流泪
只要你能 听到我
看到我的全心全意
有时候连我自己都没办法认清我自己， 究竟我口里说出来的， 我脑里想到的， 我心里要求的， 我感觉体会的， 是不是真的， 真的是我自己。 听这首歌的时候， 我想得很多， 越想越好奇， 到底我自己究竟瞒着我自己多少东西。 究竟我没底下来的眼泪跑到哪里去了。 可是我应该会不知道吧， 也其实没这么煽情吧。 因为这些对我来说， 已经不怎么重要了。 真的是蛮鼻酸的。
Curry house 的curry是蛮好吃的。 只是好像有点骗钱。 哈哈。 至少curry在我的肚子里胀起来，似乎饱了。
黄城夜韵2008， 老样子三部剧， 三个司仪， 一个谢幕。 就好像为利说的， 黄城的程度好像一直一直在下降。 也不仅是这样啦。 比较多的是应该是我们已经长大了， 什么爱情理想冒险都变成只是这样而已， 不过而已。 如果连自己的悲剧都已经没有办法落泪了， 那又怎么会为他人编的故事而流呢。 我还是觉得， standard是有在啦， 只是剧本可以更好。 其他的灯光影响道具演员舞台都还是很赞赏的。 尤其是道具， 哈哈， 真开心， 好得很。 虽然说一部剧， 不只是剧本而已， 但是有人说得好， 剧本剧本， 是一剧之根本呀， 不能不挑。 就好像本性本性， 人性之根本呀， 不能不好。 有人很久以前就说过， 黄城看谢幕。
第一部剧是好， 只是就好像芹蕾说的， 三个人， 撑不起就完了。 剧本给我的感觉就好像是初稿一样， 而且只有一个点， 直得很， 看了5分钟就知道结局了。 可以更悲， 但是我想不用了。 但是可以更煽情。 可以不用这样悲， 做感人也好。 有一幕象神来之笔一样， 左右两条线， 一灯搞成。 却只有一幕而已， 真是把编剧创作的最初灵感和有限的舞台感官出卖得一览无遗。 我想因为一开始就设定了结局， 所以结果就是这样。 其他方面， 就好像大家的一致认可这样， 全部被allocated去后面的剧了。 司仪到底要什么花， 我也不知道。
第二部剧是好， 只是就好像俊玲说的， 人物情节太trivial了。 整部剧的舞台设计和道具概念都做得很好。 尤其是最后一幕， 那混乱中灯一亮一切恢复纯白每个人深陷在自己狭隘的spotlight之下， 真的是深得我心。 其他能挑的就只是倚天剑， purple sofa， 还有一些怪怪的对白。 也许是还不够入戏吧。 我在想， 前面的鬼屋诡异， 后面来个大逆转， 换为夸张凸现人性的恐怖， 最后化为原点。 司仪的过场是蛮不错的， 引人深思， 还差一点。
第三部剧是好， 只是就好像大家说的， 非常从盒说起。 哈哈， 真的是太怀念了， 大家看到这样的一部剧， 真的是好开心。 最多人， 最长剧本， 最多道具， 最漂亮的女孩， 最美的画， 最搞笑敢演的演员， 最可爱的声音， 最夸张的服装， 最热热闹闹， 最后的婚礼， 从天而降神父的声音， 我还能说什么呢。 似乎， 我只想说， 我想要演那个男主角的角色。 只是只是， 那个结局， 那个结局。 是真的， 人类的世界太多复杂的情感， 只知道欢乐的玩具如我， 虽然有自动upgrade programme， 但也是没有办法handle的， 我的心， 我的心， 感觉怪怪的， 好难受。 但是作为一个人， 如果没有办法认清理清承受看穿控制掌握做主自己的情绪和感情， 那就还有好多好多修炼要做， 其实这也是没有可能的吧。 爱情的起点本来就无法考究， 只是忽然间的在乎加上很多很多的东西砌堆成。 人是真的， 依赖着别人的爱来呼吸， 依赖着别人的爱来爱， 才能够付出爱。 然后， 相爱， 并不一定相知， 相惜， 相包容。 婚礼scene好美喔!!
谢幕。 一生只有两次。
干了!
阳
3/09/2008 12:06:00 PM
Friday, February 29, 2008 Labels: 2008, Angel., pravs, song lyrics
蝴蝶。
最近最近真的好久没有听陶吉吉唱歌了， 真是感到惭愧内疚无地自容。 本来还对有新的歌曲感到沾沾自喜， 一直到那天早上， 好像是考pharmaco的早上， 听到了<蝴蝶>。
当这世界已经准备将我遗弃
像一个伤兵被留在孤独荒野里
开始怀疑我存在有没有意义
在别人眼里我似乎变成了隐形
难道失败就永远翻不了身
谁来挽救堕落的灵魂
每次一见到你
心里好平静
就像一只蝴蝶飞过废墟
我又能活下去
我又找回勇气
你的爱像氧气帮忙我呼吸
我又能呼吸
我又能呼吸
你就是不愿意放弃
。。。
我会永远珍惜
我会永远爱你
在我心底的你的位置没有人能代替
yeah 你就是那唯一
真是好歌!! 哈哈。
那天察看我的伊妹儿， 看到了令我非常感动的东西。
不要害怕闪耀
这世界需要你能给的
打开你的领域
为自己， 为他人
你有价值
你有特性
你能给得这么多
不要害怕给予。
应该没有告诉任何人吧， 快要过新年的时候， 有一只蝴蝶/娥飞到我的家门口徘徊了好几天， 怎样的解释我都很开心。 哈哈。
干杯!
阳
2/29/2008 01:42:00 AM
Thursday, February 07, 2008 Labels: 2008, CNY, happy day, huangchengyeyun, song lyrics, 流浪
大过年!!!
我觉得这个世界上再也没有一首更好笑的歌
"开封有个包青天...翻天鼠， 身轻如燕...."
怎么了， 你觉得不是很好笑吗? 相信我， 改天我找给你看， 这是世界上最好笑的歌了。
我很怀念这种笑法， 似乎只记得是在黄城里才有， 笑到肚子痛还要笑的笑。 笑到不行了， 还要继续搞笑， 还要继续演， 继续笑。 开心， 笑声， 和众人之间的默契是息息相关的。 也和众人的才气牵扯在一起。 笑声和力量， 借助他人的， 一层一层的叠叠叠， 越来越高， 无法自拔。 一群人就这样疯了。 这就是我最初想要进黄城的梦想吧。 就为了这舜间迸发的火花。 久违了，这瞬间迸发的火花。 可惜的是， 这样的我， 似乎离现在的我是越来越tmr远了。 我越来越冷静了。 我并没有怨言， 因为这是为了更靠近我的理想， 还有我和现实的妥协。 也许吧， 这两年我会这样过真的是因为我完完全全把演员这个角色丢出窗外了。 好想好想好想找回那种感觉哟。 只是斜一步我已来到不一样的海阔天空。 却开始在怀念那曾经拥有的辽阔天地。 我想聪明如我， 会有办法的。 我也开始更加了解自己了。 如果真的可以找到这样的一个人， 一个如此疯狂的人， 那也不枉绑住自己了。 演戏的是疯子， 一点都没错。
伟利说我最近好像很堕落颓废的样子。 我想一半是对的， 一半是他自己想的。 觉得很不痛快。 只有这么一点点。 应该是寂寞吧。
干杯!
阳
2/07/2008 02:03:00 AM
Sunday, August 05, 2007 Labels: Boring, Random words., song lyrics, 失落
还是活得好好的。
好久没有上来写什么东东了。 你是不是以为我怎么了? 还是以为我不在再来写了? 哈! 原本有一种很怪的想法， 但是后来， 就有另一个更怪的想法， 所以又回来写一些东东。 曾经以为想要忘记才回来， 可是回来又怎么会忘记。 渐渐的， 已经不在怎么想起了。 但是无法磨灭的是回忆。 忽然间想起昨天很想听的一首歌。 "你爱我吗， 只有天知道。"
一人一半， 感情不散。 我拿着我的那一半， 沉默着， 彷徨着， 走着走着， 自己的一半， 就是我的全部。 自己的半杯水， 拿个小一点的杯装着就变成满满的幸福。 自己， 从来都不需要你那一半。 自己都能写出这样的东东， 好像真的好难过， 忽然间觉得很自卑(自杯)。 忽然间很想去看881， 但是一定又是没有人会和我去看。 嗯。 有时会真的好好的想想看自己在生命里到底做错了什么， 或者是在那一个转捩点上选择了什么错。 我为什么会进入现在这样的圈子， 搞到自己好像外星人一样格格不入。 想着去融入别人而改变自己， 又不想放弃自己去迎合别人。 搞到自己， 又孤单， 又好像是自己在放弃自己一样。 矛盾不安浮燥难过。 买了原声大碟后听了歌再把歌词载上来吧。
后来后来， 又觉得自己会喜欢的女生其实都长得那样， 连朋友们都能做神算了。 只是， 现在要看的， 比以前多一些了。 祝你们生意兴隆。
Cheers!
Yang =)
8/05/2007 01:45:00 AM
Thursday, June 21, 2007 Labels: keely, music, Random words., song lyrics
原来爱情这么伤.
After one night, woke up with this song.
我日月无光忙得不知所以然
找朋友交谈其实全帮不上忙
以为会习惯有你在才是习惯
你曾住在我心上现在空了一个地方
原来爱情这么伤比想象中还难
泪水总是不听话幸福躲起来不声不响
太多道理太牵强道理全是一样
说的时候很简单爱上后却正巧打乱
只想变的坚强强到能够去忘
无所谓悲伤只要学会抵抗
原来爱情这么伤
原来爱情是这样这样峰回路转
泪水明明流不干瞎了眼还要再爱一趟
有一天终于打完思念的一场战
回过头再看一看
原来爱情那么伤
下次还会不会这样
Thanks for the uploader always able to find her song. Haha. I only heard the original once or twice before her, so I felt closer to keely's version, her voice got 特色, so niceee.
Cheers!
Yang =)
6/21/2007 09:19:00 AM
Monday, June 11, 2007 Labels: music, Random words., Silly questions, song lyrics
Random words.
Was on my way home tonight on the bus. Did not want to take a lift because scared the silence, and scared people will be spending a lot efforts to entertain me, and me tired of entertaining people(just for tonight tho), and as usual I am a very paiseh person. Was looking out into the darkness of the streets, misty, cooling, and lonely. Then this song came in.
歌曲：鱼在水里哭
歌手：深白色2人组
我矛盾着无助
很需要你能给我一点点保护
想对你说的话却总说不出
我变成了植物
Thinking about what things that I want to say but cannot say. I realised there's almost none. In front of people, I will say what I want to say. Especially so these days after CSFC when I realised I became more and more vocal, and more and more mature. Actually, since young, even though I do not say much, I only remembered a few moments when things that I really want to voice out but did not. Lesser of these moments these days. None at all. Its not about whether I will say or not. Its more about whether I have anything to say or not. Whether I feel anything about anything to make me want to say anything or not. 我是植物， 行尸走肉。 对身边的事默默无闻， 对眼前的事视而不见， 对周遭的事毫不关心。 没有感觉， 没有体会， 没有思想， 没有心情， 没有需求， 没有要求， 没有坚持， 没有信念。 无心， 无神， 无色身香味触法。 Was wondering how did I become someone like that. They say 无欲则刚. I think so too, but then, for someone like me, its just pure sad.
I remembered that this song was commented as soapy. I agree with it entirely, thats why its only at 1140pm coming home after so much things looking out into pitch darkness Bishan park then I can fully appreciate the soappiness. Wah just feel like plunging my head into a pool of water and cry in it. 鱼在水里哭.
Somehow, despite all my wishes, I wish that things will go as you wish. Then, it can save us all the trouble of having to "惹出来做这个费心劳神， 呕心沥血的事" Quoted from 三国, talking about 徐元直推荐诸葛孔明给刘玄德。 Somehow, deep within the deepest wishes, I wish that things can be kind of like that, just like that.
I was saying, how do you know when you had picked the correct present for someone? Thats when after you decided on it, the more you think about it, the happier you are. The more you look at it, the more you use it, the more you are amazed that how good it is, and how the correct choice you had made. Same, goes to when you do something correct. Same, goes to the correct person, the more you been with the person, the more you know what I am saying.
Suddenly don't wish to be hot knife through butter. The smarter I become, I can still never be as smart as you, then might as well don't, might as well be 老实, 要做到淳厚质朴， 心无渣滓， 才能分心二用.
Less happy post if you happened to realised.
I think she is quite sweet and cheerful (I need a 傻大姐). Haha did not want to post the youtube of her performance, because not so sweet.
Cheers!
Yang =)
6/11/2007 12:33:00 AM