Saturday, January 02, 2010
新年快乐！！ 他真帅！！
这样才是新帅派！！
Yang =)
1/02/2010 12:08:00 AM
Monday, December 14, 2009
风云II
为什么。
为什么绝世好剑连一个小箩骡都砍不断？
为什么。
为什么入魔就一定要皆大欢喜？
为什么。
为什么风云再现， 不堪一击？
为什么？
12/14/2009 05:04:00 PM
Sunday, June 21, 2009 Labels: 2009, book, chenbolin, chenqizhen, kuilunmei, lan-se-da-men, movie, music, taiwan, 此生阿~
谁走进了我的蓝色大门？
跟蓝色大门的情意结开始于陈绮贞的一首歌叫"小步舞曲"。 你还是先看一下吧。
怎么样， 看到了吧。 一开始就是电影"蓝色大门"的片段情节。 当年， 2002年， 并没有很注意这部片子， 因为知道讲的是女同关系。 女同关系真的是管我屁事。 只知道后来后来在此片第一次演出也红了的陈柏霖 -
还有桂纶镁
对， 就是不能说的秘密的桂纶镁
惊讶吧， 变了那么多。
昨天， 也不知道是有幸还是不幸， 我的补习课在一小时后就中断了。 无所事事所以自己就溜达到图书馆去， 竟然让我看到了蓝色大门的改编小说。 说起来真可笑， 这么多年了， 竟然没有看过这本或这部赫赫有名的电影， 还需从图书里开始。 翻开第一面， 就像是任何一本电影改编小说一样充斥着电影剧照和经典台词， 只是对我那时来说， 只不过是对两位明星这些年来的改变感到赞叹。
一开始读， 就是注定不一样， 因为一开始就是飞。
跟电影里头一样， 一开始就是飞， 让细腻的文字， 让读者和主角们起飞。
读着读着， 忽然之间， 我感到有一些不妥。 我发现自己竟然只是在表面上的skimp through那些文字。 那些文字背后所讲述的恩爱情仇， 许许多多的少年愁， 烦恼， 心悸， 无病呻吟， 我什么都不了解。 也许是我的语文修为下降了， 也许是我的文化涵养还没到阁， 也许是自己在地上独自走了23年， 自己活过来了那么多次， 自己过了那么多关， 还是没有曾经领略过那两个17岁少年的心路历程。
在我心里翻来覆去， 什么叫做爱情？
会是谁， 会出现在我的蓝色大门呢？
这是我去台北是住的民宿的大门， 因为是蓝色的， 所以也算是蓝色大门。 只是， 在台北的日子， 似乎没有什么谁谁谁。 其实我发现， 去了一趟台北， 回来后读台湾小说更有意思， 至少我走过南京西路， 还有忠孝东路。 哈哈
阳
6/21/2009 01:34:00 PM
Saturday, December 06, 2008
Sucker for 海角7号
I like 海角7号, not only because of 梁文音 and her 风光明媚. But also because I am a sucker for this kind of sick, predictable, silly, wont-ever-be-my-kind romance..and very much because of the laughter that I can appreciate, reciprocate and regenerate..
Also because of the part memories that I can associate..不管是风光明媚， 乡村田野， 市区郊外， 人情世故， 爱情思念， 都是令我的回忆慢慢， 慢慢涌现出来。
Especially this scene..
I had always thot I the only sucker who will take this kind of foto..hahahaha..
Sucker!
Cheers
Yang =)
12/06/2008 01:24:00 AM
Sunday, September 09, 2007 Labels: movie
8+8+1
To all those who did not get to watch 881, just like me. They say that the songs in 881 are nice. Indeed.
Cheers!
Yang =)
9/09/2007 01:33:00 AM
Saturday, April 28, 2007 Labels: happy day, movie, Random words., Silly questions
CSFC first week.
Someone mentioned very aptly "We are here, just to meet our clients earlier than all the rest of the undergraduates". 一语惊醒梦中人. Many times I fall into my own very little inferiority complex. Facing the hectic-ness in ward rounds, demandings of senior consultants, lack of sleep on my own, I become closed. Closed. The last thing that I want in such a time of change. Open up. I guess everything is ready. The whole universe had conspired already, for something that should had happened in my life. Ready just for me to perform and rise to the occasion. This time, 我可以.
That sentence summarizes clinical years, academic years can be summarized by one activity, "learning vocabularies".
Things can be as simple as what you want to be. Every man for himself. These two things finally shook their hands in my mind. Life is but, the simplest being, death. Everything else, is just some how some sort of complications that we want to get ourselves into. Responsibilities, faith, trust, care and concern, love, everything is for a better good, yet, complicates our lives, for the better good of all of us, really good? Things change as time progresses, no doubt what is good is always good I realized in the end, and what is old time truth will be true (bah.) but without those bad things, where can I see the goodness, bad things are but, for the better good of all of us. Whole universe conspired to make me a better man.
Someone commented not understanding why people like to listen to soppy music. Neither understanding, why do people love until so sad. I know. I know why you don't understand. Because you see things differently, different from all of us. The most important thing to do in life, I might say, is to keep self happy, or rather, is to do what we think needs to be done. This is because I dislike the idea that you said that these people are happy to be sad in love. I think, its more like, they throw their needs in as they got swept by love. Its just like, why we curse and get frustrated when we study for exams.
As for soppy songs, for me, its all dreaming about things that had never happened in my life, except for, Eason - k 歌之王。
Kind of forgot what are my hobbies again. I was thinking, why I seem less happy and carefree when I was in university. One big reason I must say, is that I don't sing songs so often, like sing anywhere, unlike in younger days. Closed liao. If changes go on as it is, I should be looking into a better life. I tend to give a lot to other people, without thinking that there should be anything back. But when someone like that comes along, giving me more than what I give and not expecting anything back, I tend to not know what to do. I don't know how to handle myself. Opps.
My mother described me as "冷热无常". She said she saw that in my palmistry too. That is how I will say myself too. I have my own reasons, though not rational at all. "Next time better time, next deal better deal." -my 座右铭 when I play Settlers of Catan.
I want my 座右铭 for CSFC to be, "Ok!, Lets Go!"
武士的一分 was nice, nicer than nada sou sou (haha). At least, that scene was super super super exciting and breath stopping. "Uncle do you have increase in heart beat and shortness of breath?" Like I can see us sitting up and heart pounding. I so so so so much like takuya kimura! Haha. He is like how suave, how determined, how I want to be like him. There's always a purpose for everything, just that when and whether you see it or not. Now I see my purpose. Only those who put in everything to break through everything will finally get the simplest things in life. Thanks for being there.
Cheers!
Yang =)
4/28/2007 02:50:00 AM
Sunday, April 22, 2007 Labels: book, dance, exercise, guanyimma, happy day, holidays, movie, musical, Random words.
12 days of holz (well Christmas is not here yet)
I guess its not right not to blog anything about my short holiday stint before my preclinicals. Furthermore, it was one of the most exciting, refreshing and intense holidays. I felt blissed. Ohwell, except for the fact that I did not have any internet until yesterday, otherwise perfect.
Watched nada sou sou on last Thursday. I guess there's just so many things to think about, when there are so many things which I can link to my life now. But of course, not during the show, mainly after that. Conclusion is that, I am just glad with what I have now, and if life makes it this way for me, then this way will be the best for me. I have the ability to make a difference, and now I know which is those I should make a difference.
Argentina Tango dance class on Thursday. I guess I am the traditional conservative type. Was simply red-flushed-faced-menopausal-like-not-but-testosterone-charged when dancing. But I welcome the new experience. But I guess to go for it further or not depends also on the flow of things, from what I see now, I guess nope. It was a really really good experience, something which I guess until the next hotter dancer comes about, will never be forgotten. I still think having a class with outside people is good, because that will make everyone capable of becoming a teacher. Everyone is a teacher, an old but newly made conscious idea, hmm. In any case pay so little for so much friends and teacher, zhuan dao liao!
Sleep deprivation caffeine study from Friday to Tuesday. I guess this is one of those things which I can list down as one of the most memorable events in my life. Firstly, made 2 new good friends, Kevin Kok and Yi Kang. Its not that I don't know them, but its just that its my 1st nature to ignore people I never had the chance to talk to. So I am really really glad that this event made us friends, cheers to more years of playing settlers of Catan! Hurhur. Woo I realized that settlers is such an addictive and nice game to play, next time shall play it again at the settler's cafe. Haha. Gian. Anyway, all of us talked alot during the thing, and I got to know more about myself, my inadequates (as usual) and alot more. I guess THAT was just for pure fun, nothing intense or hurting meant, haha. Thanks guys.
Secondly, I learnt alot during the sleep deprivation period. I had first hand experience of how people work, deteriorate and whats the best and worst of people. Thats by observing other people. For myself, it was a period of almost going into madness. Its like being drunk at some point in time. At first, I can hear normally, then, I start to hear everything at the same amplitude, ie I am unable to differentiate between what is important to me and what is just background noise. Then I can't hear anything, including what is spoken directly to me, everything just turned into background noise, distant and muted. And come lastly everything just collapse and I turned into a panic state because I simply cant connect myself to the world. Lucky for me, things did not go further worse, otherwise I wont be here to type things. It goes the same with the thinking function, and the motor function. I guess at some point in time, I was able to sleep with my eyes open. Hmm.
Throughout the study, especially at the most critical time, I kept on recurring what you had said, that its amazing what people can do for money. We both saw it in nada sou sou, however untrue it seems, that people, really, can put in alot alot alot just for the sake of money, and its not a spur of rashness, but its something that can last for a very long time. Until, until when everything comes to a stop. Thats when money, is not important anymore. But before that, there's so much things that we need to juggle, and money, turns us into slaves so things can flow as we wanted. Random words again.
Ohyah, during the study, one song became meaningful in my life because of its participation in it. "In the morning, dudodudodudodududu. "
Handroll for breakfast! Chup Chye for lunch and dinner, yucks. Super rings rocks!! Cup noodles for supper. I kind of missed mian chum chum, haha.
I also learnt about the gold standard in functional testing. Wah that is just so sleep inducing and one of the most boring things I had ever seen. Settlers of Catan should be a better gauge of prefrontal function.
Wu niang did not appear despite my plea for it. Chiobus was there, but just for entertainment and morale-boosting sake. I guess its time to stop being childish, everyone needs something to survive for. I look out for my own happiness. And as someone roared to me, happiness is mine!
First hand watched babysitter juggling 8 kids. Haha. Thats kinda fun considering who is the babysitter. Don't be stupid lah, sometimes, just abit of cooperation from everyone makes everyone's life easier, and the money more worth it. I learnt that in a peaceful manner.
Maybe got more about the study, but things seem like a dream and went passed. Hence could not write more about it. Heehee paiseh will write more if I can think of.
Phantom of the Opera on Tuesday. We ate at NYDC to celebrate weilei's birthday before that. I like the food there, its rather nice, but I guess its time for me to move on, because the thing now is eating at NYDC saves money, and I remembered of the first time when I ate at NYDC, I thought it was super ex. After that was in the esplanade, saw a few old people. I like the show very much!! I love the set!! I love the candles that comes out from nowhere! I love the dry ice that knows where to settle down and not flood the whole stage!! I love the boat!! I love the stair and the masquerade!! I love how they huan4 chang3!! Simply love it the way that they make props and set so nice!! I love the stage too, it reflects perfectly when light is shined from top down!! Oh I love the stars and the city scene when the two characters are heyheying!! I love the music!! I love the songs!! I love the ballet dancers!! I love the clothes!! I love the elephant that comes out in the first scene!! I love the bridge!! Ohman. It was amazing, and considering its the first time for me to watch a professional production, I simply love it. I know why once again I love the stage and drama so much. There's just simply so much dreams, hopes, effects, love and showmanship which I love. And for 52 bucks, I love it. Muacks!
Running and gym on Wed. Exercise rocks! Frees me from all the earthly thinkings and makes me a free-er person.
Was on this project on Thursday. It was my dream in RI to do alot of it. But I guess, for the path that I had picked for myself, and life helped me in doing so, I guess, I can still do alot of it. I want to do it!! But, not as how others are doing it.
Went to guanyimma temple on Friday. I was really confused about two things. For one of them, the answer was to look for it is like being in the sea without a compass, which is simply one word, lost. And to look for the compass, is like looking for a needle in the sea, one word again, lost. So doubly lost. Doubly confused. The point being, to control something that is doubly lost makes you even more lost, triply lost. For things that can't be done anything about, simply let it go and things will fall in place nicely the next time when you look at it. Hopefully.
For the other one, when things are thought through and nicely planned, simply press the auto mode and let things work their way out. Some unexpected matters might occur along the way, but thats none for you to know now. For now, if you feel that you already did what you can and had put in your best for the future, simply let it go and things will fall in place nicely the next time when you look at it. Hopefully.
Two things confused, two sayings, one conclusion, how easy things can be!
For the rest of Friday, read the alchemist. I guess its my type of book. I will write something like that if I have the time. The ideas in it aligns with mine quite well, but no I am not going to turn myself into the wind nor talk to the hand that writes all these. I mean, I know what the idea in the book is trying to say, and somehow somewhat, I kind of think in that way too. I am weird and maybe a freak.
Sat was bball and soccer at hwachong double whammy. Now thats what I call non-stop action! Weak-end warriors!! I mean week-end warriors!! It sounds good exercise rocks and friendship is good. After what you said, I start to think about things in a different light, yes what you said is true, true-er than mine, but I am a simple person who have simpler goals, so let me be. Another thing that happened is me making myself happy. No I never play chess for quite long already.
Sunday is today. I can make it happier. 7am in school tmr, earliest ever man.
Cheers!
Yang =)
4/22/2007 10:31:00 AM
Thursday, April 12, 2007 Labels: happy day, movie, Random words.
1st day post pros.
Have you ever experienced this. That you are doing something for someone and you are feeling so stupid about doing it (maybe because that something is stupid in the first place) and you don't understand at all why are you doing this and for what for who you are doing this. And mind you, this is not about something heyhey. If you are doing something stupid for a heyhey then its still ok, because only the ending will decide if that something you did is stupid or not, but just that at that point in time you feel stupid, its ok. But. I still don't know why and still feeling stupid.
Thats why I am so touched by nada sou sou. Like the scene of the typhoon, the guy was feeling how stupid, and at that point the numerous stupid times of me bubbled up and flooded me. Ohman I feel like crying. But then its true that, for people like me, I start to not understand that why everything must go in that direction. I know, I like to go there also, but had never ever been there, but then, I think I am used to what I have now. Thanks.
I quite like nada sou sou, because I am deeply engrossed into the show. Usually I am easily distracted by other people and things in the cinema, but for this show I give it thumbs up. Maybe because the girl and guy were too 赏心悦目. Haha. But then, as I had mentioned, that sometimes, things can be just so pure. I hope.
Erm. I should be more professional in things.
Anyway, I realised I am not busy at all. Which is kinda a bad feeling because everyone else is busy. I should find back a hobby, or try to upgrade myself more. In any case, why I am not busy is also because I have no dreams. I realised that I have no dreams already. Thats why. Yesterday was watching engine. I think my biggest dream now is to have a happy family. No matter how small how insignificant how un-nobel how 理所当然 how everyone-can-do-it how self-centred is your dream, its still a dream, its still a dream, please give me some respect, and some hope, and dignity, and trust, and tell me I can do it, no matter how small, I also thank you. 请不要践踏我的梦想。 I still believe in love.
Cheers!
Yang =)
4/12/2007 11:48:00 PM
Saturday, February 03, 2007 Labels: bdae, Happy Birthday 2007, movie
Happy Birthday 21st.
Yep. Its my 21st birthday if you have not realised. There are some misconceptions that I must clarify. Firstly, contrary to popular belief by about 10+ people, I am not 22 years old this year. And also, I am not getting married when I am 22 years old!(though I secretly wish that I can)! Thirdly, I am not secretly sad about not being zam-med and secretly hoping that I get zam-med. Fourthly, I don't have any heyhey.
2/03/2007 12:44:00 AM