Wednesday, July 08, 2009 Labels: 2009, caoge, music, song lyrics, stupid thing i do, 会过去的~, 失落, 此生阿~
万法自然。
寂寞先生
作詞：小寒 作曲：曹格
你的笑容是恩惠 世界難得那麼美
我可以無所謂 寂寞卻一直掉眼淚
Oh Im not okay
我假裝無所謂 才看不到心被擰碎
我答应自己 从今天起 不会再看到我的憔悴
TTM.
恶魔在身边。
7/08/2009 07:34:00 PM
Sunday, June 21, 2009 Labels: 2009, book, chenbolin, chenqizhen, kuilunmei, lan-se-da-men, movie, music, taiwan, 此生阿~
谁走进了我的蓝色大门？
跟蓝色大门的情意结开始于陈绮贞的一首歌叫"小步舞曲"。 你还是先看一下吧。
怎么样， 看到了吧。 一开始就是电影"蓝色大门"的片段情节。 当年， 2002年， 并没有很注意这部片子， 因为知道讲的是女同关系。 女同关系真的是管我屁事。 只知道后来后来在此片第一次演出也红了的陈柏霖 -
还有桂纶镁
对， 就是不能说的秘密的桂纶镁
惊讶吧， 变了那么多。
昨天， 也不知道是有幸还是不幸， 我的补习课在一小时后就中断了。 无所事事所以自己就溜达到图书馆去， 竟然让我看到了蓝色大门的改编小说。 说起来真可笑， 这么多年了， 竟然没有看过这本或这部赫赫有名的电影， 还需从图书里开始。 翻开第一面， 就像是任何一本电影改编小说一样充斥着电影剧照和经典台词， 只是对我那时来说， 只不过是对两位明星这些年来的改变感到赞叹。
一开始读， 就是注定不一样， 因为一开始就是飞。
跟电影里头一样， 一开始就是飞， 让细腻的文字， 让读者和主角们起飞。
读着读着， 忽然之间， 我感到有一些不妥。 我发现自己竟然只是在表面上的skimp through那些文字。 那些文字背后所讲述的恩爱情仇， 许许多多的少年愁， 烦恼， 心悸， 无病呻吟， 我什么都不了解。 也许是我的语文修为下降了， 也许是我的文化涵养还没到阁， 也许是自己在地上独自走了23年， 自己活过来了那么多次， 自己过了那么多关， 还是没有曾经领略过那两个17岁少年的心路历程。
在我心里翻来覆去， 什么叫做爱情？
会是谁， 会出现在我的蓝色大门呢？
这是我去台北是住的民宿的大门， 因为是蓝色的， 所以也算是蓝色大门。 只是， 在台北的日子， 似乎没有什么谁谁谁。 其实我发现， 去了一趟台北， 回来后读台湾小说更有意思， 至少我走过南京西路， 还有忠孝东路。 哈哈
阳
6/21/2009 01:34:00 PM
Thursday, May 29, 2008 Labels: music, Random words.
好好听喔!!
难得写写东西， 这么巧明天就是考试了。 哈哈。 我到底在做什么呢。 应该去读读书不是吗? 两个实力坚强的女唱将。 特别钟爱梁文音。 她就是我stereotype的我喜欢的类型。 heehee..
Cheers!
Yang =)
5/29/2008 10:38:00 PM
Sunday, September 30, 2007 Labels: Angel., chenqizhen, happy day, music
陈绮贞 A Piece of Summer 2007 新加坡演唱会
我心中的吉他手。
从演唱会的兴奋到现在， 在我心里只有一句话: She ROX!
闭上眼睛， 我还能看见你就在面前。 你看到我， 你对着我笑。 我举起双手， 无可救药的告诉你: 我爱你! 我爱你! 我用尽所有美好梦想。 就算和别人享有你每一个假动作。
She ROX!
她实现了我所有的梦想。 一起合唱， 一起呐喊， 一起尖叫， 一起举起双手， 一起疯狂， 在一起的美好感觉。 每一天都是一种练习， 和你在一起的感觉。 我的声音， 无可救药的给了你， 消失在人群之中。 和你擦身而过的感觉真的是很好。 疯狂的向你挥挥手， 好漂亮哟你! 长长的红色头发! 真的很感谢你， 如果不是有今晚， 我也真的从来不会知道自己是多么需要这一切的感觉。 不算是一种释放， 不算是一种松懈， 不是一种解脱， 不是一种放纵， 不是一种发泄， 不是一种爆发突破。 只算是， 我好久好久好久好久都没有体验的一种力量， 一种告诉我， 你不是真的离开我， 你也不愿这样的夜里把难过留给我。
She ROXXX!!!
Cheer 陈绮贞!
Yang =)
9/30/2007 01:24:00 AM
Thursday, June 21, 2007 Labels: keely, music, Random words., song lyrics
原来爱情这么伤.
After one night, woke up with this song.
我日月无光忙得不知所以然
找朋友交谈其实全帮不上忙
以为会习惯有你在才是习惯
你曾住在我心上现在空了一个地方
原来爱情这么伤比想象中还难
泪水总是不听话幸福躲起来不声不响
太多道理太牵强道理全是一样
说的时候很简单爱上后却正巧打乱
只想变的坚强强到能够去忘
无所谓悲伤只要学会抵抗
原来爱情这么伤
原来爱情是这样这样峰回路转
泪水明明流不干瞎了眼还要再爱一趟
有一天终于打完思念的一场战
回过头再看一看
原来爱情那么伤
下次还会不会这样
Thanks for the uploader always able to find her song. Haha. I only heard the original once or twice before her, so I felt closer to keely's version, her voice got 特色, so niceee.
Cheers!
Yang =)
6/21/2007 09:19:00 AM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Lack of sing song.
Remember this girl, this song and this wonderful rendition?
Was looking through the MVs that I collected and happened to watch it. Reminds me of the good old times watching kelly sings song and how sinhuey will grow prettier and better. How different are they now! Will I become so different the next time when I start working? Technically more mature but less close to heart?
Its no doubt that I still have trouble with the song. Its like a love hate affair with it. Once I love it so much because its such a nice song, and can so much relate to it. Relate to me, at the same time chao2 xiao4 me. Later it became so unfriendly to me, like for years it kept on laughing at my sad sad state, and make me so ever sad. Though its the best song for me now (not really best now, but zuo you wu shi can sing), but its still not within me that I can accept it. Its just me as you can see, like lets say if someone rejects me, and if I can't accept/recognise/find where we are supposed to go, I will tend to have the same trouble with the person. I won't know what to do with it, and I will run away from it at all cost. Please bear with me, lesser of these instances these days because 1)I don't biao bai for the past 4 yrs alr, 2)I am becoming more mature with things.
Though I have no experience at all, but I suppose I must exercise maturity, for the benefit of myself, and to meet the expectations of all those who had experiences. Having no experiences is not a good excuse that I can do a bad job, just like being young, I had learnt that lesson from CSFC. Muahahahaha.
Cheers!
Yang =)
6/14/2007 01:33:00 AM
Monday, June 11, 2007 Labels: music, Random words., Silly questions, song lyrics
Random words.
Was on my way home tonight on the bus. Did not want to take a lift because scared the silence, and scared people will be spending a lot efforts to entertain me, and me tired of entertaining people(just for tonight tho), and as usual I am a very paiseh person. Was looking out into the darkness of the streets, misty, cooling, and lonely. Then this song came in.
歌曲：鱼在水里哭
歌手：深白色2人组
我矛盾着无助
很需要你能给我一点点保护
想对你说的话却总说不出
我变成了植物
Thinking about what things that I want to say but cannot say. I realised there's almost none. In front of people, I will say what I want to say. Especially so these days after CSFC when I realised I became more and more vocal, and more and more mature. Actually, since young, even though I do not say much, I only remembered a few moments when things that I really want to voice out but did not. Lesser of these moments these days. None at all. Its not about whether I will say or not. Its more about whether I have anything to say or not. Whether I feel anything about anything to make me want to say anything or not. 我是植物， 行尸走肉。 对身边的事默默无闻， 对眼前的事视而不见， 对周遭的事毫不关心。 没有感觉， 没有体会， 没有思想， 没有心情， 没有需求， 没有要求， 没有坚持， 没有信念。 无心， 无神， 无色身香味触法。 Was wondering how did I become someone like that. They say 无欲则刚. I think so too, but then, for someone like me, its just pure sad.
I remembered that this song was commented as soapy. I agree with it entirely, thats why its only at 1140pm coming home after so much things looking out into pitch darkness Bishan park then I can fully appreciate the soappiness. Wah just feel like plunging my head into a pool of water and cry in it. 鱼在水里哭.
Somehow, despite all my wishes, I wish that things will go as you wish. Then, it can save us all the trouble of having to "惹出来做这个费心劳神， 呕心沥血的事" Quoted from 三国, talking about 徐元直推荐诸葛孔明给刘玄德。 Somehow, deep within the deepest wishes, I wish that things can be kind of like that, just like that.
I was saying, how do you know when you had picked the correct present for someone? Thats when after you decided on it, the more you think about it, the happier you are. The more you look at it, the more you use it, the more you are amazed that how good it is, and how the correct choice you had made. Same, goes to when you do something correct. Same, goes to the correct person, the more you been with the person, the more you know what I am saying.
Suddenly don't wish to be hot knife through butter. The smarter I become, I can still never be as smart as you, then might as well don't, might as well be 老实, 要做到淳厚质朴， 心无渣滓， 才能分心二用.
Less happy post if you happened to realised.
I think she is quite sweet and cheerful (I need a 傻大姐). Haha did not want to post the youtube of her performance, because not so sweet.
Cheers!
Yang =)
6/11/2007 12:33:00 AM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007 Labels: Boring, music, Random words.
被动.
Was watching 天使情人. Wahrhaooowww. I really pity the 老实 guy. I mean. I really pity that guy who seems like me. Booo. Like he can be like me just stone there and pity himself and feel helpless and is helpless and had no idea no personality no nothing never anything at all. Wahraoowwww. Blargh. Why ah. Why ah. Why ah. Ok lah I know why but its just, why izzit me to be liddat. I want to watch the next episode and see what will happen to him. I mean. 明道 is a 老实 guy also. But just. Well. I pity guys who are like me. I pity me. Ohwell. Partly is because 帅就赢. Thats partly of course don't worry. Haiz. I think what friend C says is correct. He mentioned that, its not only going along with, but its also showing the way. Its always a two way thing, on the whole, and on my part. Hm. I am starting to understand. Hm.
How to, may I ask, how to do it? 须得深得民心。 How to do that? How to be able to 观察入微， 支字片语之间， 杀人于无形? Hm.
Random blog post reading reminds me of the word 豪迈. I want to be 豪迈, but its just, so so so so many things accumulate together. The same thing, 豪迈 or not, is not just about being it.
Cheers!
Yang=)
6/06/2007 06:57:00 PM
Saturday, June 02, 2007 Labels: bdae, music, Random words., Smart., song lyrics
"Some people just get it easy" again.
Seems like I cannot get out of my small circle. Seems like I have to venture out into the cold, hot world outside and prow through all the icecaps and deserts to find. Some people just get it easy. Yet, just need to get one. One out of the millions out there, so easy. But to find the one, out of the millions out there constantly 混淆-ing my 视线, is hard.
歌曲：那个人
歌手：深白色2人组 专辑：深白色2人组
当我们笑得好大声
全世界只剩我们两个人
而当你沉默移开愤怒的眼神
你变得遥远了很
我们都爱得很认真
却害怕什么一定会发生
当所有的不确定的摧毁了信任
我的世界崩溃成无法停止流失的体温
告诉我你是那个人
能让我的生命完整不再悔恨
争吵的时候才胜任
风雨后我不会是一个人
当我流泪还有你心疼
告诉我你是那个人
这次的爱终于对了没有疑问
说我是你的那个人
你的心是我最后的旅程
tell me you're that special someone
有太多天真的伤痕
让我们成了脆弱的灵魂
无法任性地相信会走到永恒
已经失去了颜色我想要更绝对的可能
Was walking home in my formal. This two guys approached me (sorry if you are reading this, but please try to restrain from finding people to box me in the streets), trying to do sales. The first guy is just talking so fast, that I had no idea of what he is saying except for "two dollars" and "handicap". I was not interested in what he was talking anyway. The other guy came up at first to thank me for stopping and listening to the first guy. Both shook my hand, I recalled that I did not wash my hand after examination today, if we bleed due to streetfight they will die of salmonella. Anyway I just could not hear what the first guy was saying. I am giving feedback to you here if you are thinking. I could not hear what you are saying and could not be bothered with what you are saying. A good tactic employed by them was to hand me something so I have to hold on to it and cannot zao. But I just cannot heat what you are saying and am not caring. So I, in view of my frustration of almost failing my examination today, decided to do my utmost, "thank you so sorry, can I return you your this thing, and thank you but I am so sorry". (Don't show me that face man). Did I mention it was almost 12am and I woke up at 6am today and had an exam and did not sleep well and cat-fought with an aikido champion? You wont want to get salmonella man. Neither clostridium. Oh yah. Please do not show me that face. Nor that hand. You met your old grandmaster in showing that face and that hand. You will really feel like punching me if I show you that and I will be sure to give you mixed anaerobic infection in your wrist. Let me tell you what. My choice here, is to choose between letting a handicapped person have a nice warm meal at the expense of two dollars from me, and to spend my next whole day in hunger or to let me spend two dollars a day. So simple. I know what you will choose if you were me, that is to threaten everyone that I will give him salmonella unless two dollars is given. So simple. I sound a bit pissed but I am sure I was smiling at the person. Smiling for his wu2 zhi1.
Ningqi's birthday was fun. Its just what they say, what kind of person gets what kind of treatment. Mine was not the worst, but was one of the worst. And after everything so bad are done, I think this time round its really nice. I think people should be daring and fierce when they are young. Otherwise when the hot blood is gone, what else spirit can you find in you. Trying, again, to find something to link up all of my life again. I forgot what I had found the last time. This time round, maybe I can finally reach the fool.
I think almost done liao. Things are seeing an upright turn. Just need a little bit more push. Yep. Jia you on my part. Success is not just pushing other people into success, its being successful on your part as well.
Cheers!
Yang =)b
6/02/2007 01:45:00 AM
Thursday, May 31, 2007 Labels: exercise, music, Random words.
只是我吧， 谁记得?
Was running. At the end of it, exhausted at the weakest point physically yet the strongest point mentally to defy all that go against me. Then 孙燕姿 - 我怀念的 came on 933. I can only say that she is really good in this kind of songs, cant think of another singer to take on this song and the so many others that I love so much. 这么多地感动, 多么的激动。 Its just her, to put the tune and the lyrics and the everything together so well. The music is good, the lyrics is good, the everything is good, but its her, who has the goodness to do it. Yep. Reminds me of the many others who are known to be good in something, yet are also so much so good in all the others. Its the human factor, the factor that I strive, strive to become the hot knife in butter.
So here's the song, for you to listen, that touched me again and again like the good jokes that made people laugh again and again, maybe, its the person factor too. No lyrics this time. I think for yanzi's songs, its really how she does it, to have 轻重音, at the end of it, you will hear whats important in the song, the critical 转音s as well as the important words, and what you want to hear, making the beautiful touching effects and sweet. Actually wanted to put the mv, but I realised, the best way is to close your eyes and listen. Let your own mv form in you.
I like the part "谁 记得". Not exceptionally, but just a part that I like in a unique way. This line has an unique form of sadness, and lost of control.
I wonder why. Why I will feel the touch and 激动 when I listen. I was watching the mv, and realised, that I had never been through any of those, any of these, any of which, those "我怀念的" things. I also wonder what kind of mv had formed within me, just my imaginations, nothing ever happened. Its just my 诗人的情怀.
Was randomly reading a blog. I agree with alot of things that you said, I can see that how all these can be all true, and how can I sit within it and receive comfort. I can also see how can I put my whole life into it and yet sorting a best way through everything. The best way. Im taking the best way. That I agree with you, but it is not in this life that I will conform, I do my part for you, yet its just me, that I like to 逆天而行。 Its just me. I am still learning, maybe one day, the road that I take leads me back to you. Maybe, its just like, how I would so much to get attached, yet, what am I doing I am totally aware will only bring me further and further, until, someday that it leads me back to you.
Cheers!
Yang =)
5/31/2007 06:26:00 PM
Wednesday, May 30, 2007 Labels: music, Random words., song lyrics
好过没来过
Was going home after a hectic day. Actually was just a lazy day could have done something more useful for me and for others. Think about the others who could not have the chance to do things that I feel lazy to do. Hm. Squandering and missing tutorials hah. No not me. But just thinking about it. 连我自己都觉得我自己很坏。
So was listening to this song. 没有能力再去想， 模糊的样子。 不是没有人， 不是有感染。 而是， 自己没有办法再让自己记起你的样子。
歌曲：没有人
歌手：萧亚轩
词:姚谦曲:陈伟
爱
想起来太哀伤
像今晚的天上
淡淡的半个月亮
我的爱
远在地平线以外
梦太短
遗憾又太长
爱
最迷信的信仰
拯救了寂寞啊
却掉进更深迷惘
我一个人
走在回家的路上
为什么
找不到方向
眼泪已冰凉
忘记了眼眶
所以无论我怎么去想也无法
想起你的模样
原来已没有人在我的心上
哦心房
像午夜地下铁站
最后只剩下
一片空空荡荡
没有人等没有人一切都只是
虚无和枉然
原来都是我编织的奢望
从来没有人来过我的心上
我只是你中途过站的地方
Hm.
5/30/2007 09:52:00 PM
Saturday, May 26, 2007 Labels: music, song lyrics
爱谁？
爱你
许志安
世界末日到了黱 问我终结会如何
海天一色似赤火烈焰中只得你我
最美丽亦最赤裸两颗心最后消磨
好比火花满天飞播
爱无限美无限你无限我
再凝聚似天际的银河
你对我这夜尚未承诺愿意黱
爱你我管不了是祸未想过是为何
能爱著你苦也未去躲
爱你最想得你附和
像这宇宙谐和求你像我不要乱去想为甚黱
世界末日到了黱 别理终结会如何
不必想得那黱多但愿这刻不错过
你这夜下了禁锁但我不怕被蹉跎
真心终可某天冲破
爱无限次无限试无限错
你才是我想要的负荷
你对我这夜尚未承诺愿意黱
Cheers!
Yang =)
5/26/2007 06:12:00 PM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007 Labels: music, song lyrics
Start to sing this song.
..Especially times when I feel weak and overpowered and things are waiting for me to get done..
抬头看远方的星光
悄悄的照亮 幸福的方向
紧抓着梦的翅膀
穿越漫长黑夜的荒凉
看见你在前方
拥抱我 一天天累积着感动
在心中 温暖了我的天空
I Believe myself 做最完美的我
在风雨中我会看你珍贵笑容
I Believe myself 裹着伤我勇敢的痛
你会陪着我直到最后阳光闪动 I Believe
心愿等待一个时机
成全梦想的美丽 绽放在手心
我等待相遇的奇迹
所以用力呼吸 翻越你的足迹
流浪在未知的路上 也许偶尔会彷徨
但心中渴望的力量 让我不停飞翔
Cheers!
Yang =)
5/15/2007 09:01:00 PM
Saturday, May 12, 2007 Labels: music, song lyrics
Wo huai nian de.
How cool that song. Wo huai nian de. The lyrics is how nice! But here's to the 2nd song after hen2 hao3 that I will call a song from yanzi I like. Play!
漩涡
歌手：孙燕姿 专辑：逆光
作词:小寒
作曲:李伟菘
总装着很有把握
不准爱渗入生活
才发现闯了祸
让你当真以为我的心上了锁
让你绝望地走
成全独立的我
好想捂住朵
不想不看不想听谁说
好想蹲在角落
把谴责的眼光都躲过
像个黑色漩涡
将我吞没
悔恨已逃不脱
我承认这都是我
感情事处理得不妥
从不说
我爱你
那么多
原来人可能脆弱
爱让我很难振作
我坐在最前座
人生第一次面对什么叫落寞
经历你这一走
最大傻瓜是我
我不要谁好心帮我
每个人像在隔岸观火
看我犯错
提醒我说
都是我的错
提醒我说
逼你离开我
就算同情是条绳索
我也没办法伸出双手
拯救自己(除了你)
除非是你(拯救我)
肯回头(为了我)
扭转这个结果
Well. Sad song. Sounds like me. I like. Wadeva!!
Cheers!
Yang =)
5/12/2007 07:06:00 PM