Well. This few days had been bad. B is for Bad in everything. A is for bAd in everything. D is for baD in everything. So, BAD means BAD in everything. Waha. Sounds so silly-lily depressed. Obvious Lee. Haha.
Most important reason is ownself stuck inside 无可救药. Ownself forgets what is reality, demands imaginary, and is affected by what other people say. So in the end, reality can never be matched with imaginary, what other people say is still only what other people say (pui!), unless its what you say yourself. Counting my blessings, saying my prayers (南无阿弥陀佛), praising the glory (ohhhhhhh~), witnessing the grace that things are still "ownself stuck inside 无可救药", nobody affected, nobody hurt. Except, just the few who I 发牢骚 on and at the end of this post still doesnt know what had happened. Nothing had happened in actual fact, its just me, don't bother, thanks for concerns and being around, because there's not much other person to talk to.
Glad to just realise I still had such tremendous exciting emotions (really did I? Maybe just that I did but did not show, but I got scared from nightmares too), reminds me of some lyrics, hm I can't seem to have a good impression of the whole song, but nevermind, next time better time. So, still not so old yet. Still can have adventures, adrenaline and advancements. Hurhur. Yay! I am in year3 already! Wait for me!
So yea, as the whole true truth tells me that if one don't save oneself, then thats it. Ohwell, some people say that things are easy to say, yet hard to do. But well, that true truth, is hopefully, one of the easiest way to do things. So since school is reopening soon, I shall start to motivate myself and keep things on the ball, no more waiting for other people's sms, no more waiting for other people's call, no more waiting for other people's email, no more waiting for other people to smile at me, no more get lost all you doctors, I shall bug u all first, Wahahaha.
I guess being on the waiting end for the whole of my life had a very bad effect on me as a person. Waiting for bus to come, waiting for teacher to come, waiting for food to be cooked, waiting for holz to come, waiting for friends to play with me, waiting for the best opportunity, waiting for my turn, waiting for people to fetch me, waiting for other people to smile at me, waiting for lift, waiting for a life to come. Being on the waiting end for the whole of my life meant that, I know and am used to what it is like to be waiting, and, I can wait. But on the flip side, I don't know what it is like to be on the being waited side, and had no experience at all to treat someone waiting. So sorry.
The good about blogging and about interviews are that, they force you to sit down and think about things, suddenly. For the split second, what is the most important will come out, what will never happen will die down.
I think my predictions from yesterday were super accurate. I am getting smarter liao. Things are under my control liao. Back to my control. Level up liao. Can score another ten million exp and upgrade to grandmaster fortune teller liao. Seh.
Not bad mah, astrology for today from the straits times is accurate too. But. I am better, you are one zillion exp away from my level. Sheesh. Angsty.
Your instincts about someone new on the scene are correct. But stay quiet for now.
Don't lose heart if some recent adventures haven't turned out quite as you'd hoped. Instead, shake off some of that weight pressing down on your shoulders. It's time to appreciate all you've learned.
Yep. Sheesh. Save me from making a choice. Thanks. I am glad. And thankful.
Today was the last CA paper. Microbiology. Darn. Groping in MarkTaylorLand for so long, finally see a little bit of light coming in. I am still so lost. Everyone is still so lost. Hope something can be done. Something will be done. Me no sitting duck.
In the next piece of news, today I went with some guys to sing song at teoheng ktv! Haha, thats like how fun I had been wanting to go for so long. Yep, there's so many songs which I had been listening to over and over again during studying and I so much want to sing them. The mv above is one of them. I am just like so happy to go teoheng. 6 bucks for 6 hours of singing, that is like how cool, and how fun. Haha. Happified.
In the next piece of news, actually today is not a happy day because of some other stuffs. Of course not expecting to do well in microbiology is one of the reasons. Was talking to friend A and friend W just now. Realised some stuffs. And thought about certain other stuffs. True, true what you all said is really true. Glad also that I had learnt something today. Thought alot throughout the day. Life is just so. Things are just so. Indefinite. I don't like. I don't like what I am best in. Its a headache. Headache from doing what I enjoy. I don't like indefinity. I like flexibility. Transcient. How.