Friday, December 31, 2010
THE BEST OF 2010
Well. Inspired by emtokalot. Im here to do the top things tt happened in 2010. Not limited to 1, not limited to 10, but just anything that i can rem. thanks:)
1. Apr 2010, Passing MBBS!:)
2. May 2010, Getting into NHG internal med residency programme:)
3. Apr 2010, Going to africa with few good friends:)
4. Apr 2010, Climbing to Stella Point, Kilimanjaro :)
5. Apr 2010, Real time experience with lion in Safari:)
6. May 2010, TTSH GS Team 3 brotherhood with donald:)
7. June 2010, :):):)
8. June 2010, TTSH GS Team 5 great team!:)
9. August 2010, GS Team 1. Brotherhood liao lah!
10. May 2010, meeting caren mok (my dearest sister) and lim qianling (my dearest brother)
11. BEDSORE CALLS!
12. Dec 2010, medication error.
Thanks 2010, Hello 2011:)
12/31/2010 10:32:00 PM
2010
积极自觉， 沉着应战。
想一想自己， 这八字中到底做了多少。
是有成长， 才会遭遇如此惨败。
是有执著， 才会有如此义无反顾。
是有努力， 才会看见自己的不在意。
是有不在乎天长地久， 才能曾经拥有。
2010
纳良提升， 建业玩转， 用心经营。
大业必成！
12/31/2010 04:26:00 PM
Thursday, November 25, 2010
勇气
今天傍晚， 下班了。 下着雨， 滴答滴答。 走在寂静的街道， 无人的路口。 黑漆漆的四周， 似乎只有我自 己和独自坐在角落的那个人。 还有， 脑海里重复着那个让我分心的表情， 那些让我动心的原因。 忽然之间， 有一把歌声从寂静的角落传出。 “终于做了这个决定， 别人怎么说我不理， 只要你也一样的肯定。。。。”
只要你的眼神肯定， 我所做的一切。 就真的有意义。
11/25/2010 09:02:00 PM
Thursday, May 06, 2010
First night call.
I think this is an impt landmark event to take note. Hence this blog post.
It was an alright night call by statistics, 23 patients for the 1st night. Common simple cases and no emergency. Hence I should be glad. Yet I would say its a very eye opener and steep learning curve for me because I think that I am just too slow and not reflexic to things. With time this will definitely get better.
Another thing that I will need to constantly remind myself is to be systematic and thorough, in fact, OCD is better than not. I kinda think tt prisc is correct in this sense. And mr lai too. haha upmost respect to ocd.
what i really nid to do, is to formulate the habit of being thorough, and being complete. there's no end in chasing. so dun chase. but every patient make sure i giv the best and make sure everything is done at the best level. make sure all scans are ordered, all bloods are taken and dispatched, all orders are understood by the nurses, patient is stable throughout the night, make sure all medications ordered are given..then i can safely say that i had finished my work with this patient and go on to the next patient..i think this is wad im supposed to do..i hope this is right i will check with my mo tmr..how to do all these for so many patients?!?!? key i think is to haf a good system and good checklist. i was jus damn noobs and damn chui yesternight. sigh. thanks muggy and wahsiew. i hope that next night call i can catch up with u guys.
its jus like. happiness is not in the end. but the journey.
note to self. when i am overwhelmed, i overwhelmed it back.
good nitez
5/06/2010 11:11:00 PM
Thursday, April 22, 2010 Labels: 2010, good fwens who scold me, MV, song lyrics, travel, 此生阿~, 流浪
JAMBO AFRIKAA!!
This had been the most challenging, most tiring, most shag, most miss home, most 迷失自己 yet most eye opening, most gained mentally and spiritually, most 找回自己 backpacking trip. One word to describe it: peer-less.
Start
The whole trip started off with the cheapskate gang wanting to save on 400 bucks so we landed in Nairobi, Kenya instead of going straight into Tanzania, and at the same time favourable because my xiao gu happened to be studying psychology in university in nairobi, and because of her participation in church activities there, she is in charge of a large compound which was luckily empty on the nights that we stayed in. So everything in the world lined up properly for us to land in nairobi.
Just to note, the flight from Singapore to Doha was the MOST CHILDISH airline!!! of course having seating arrangements that is in columns instead of rows did not help very much. i was asked to change my seat so that an angmo couple can sit together, and in so doing was sitting in close proximity to AML cripz. Waha!
Doha is an experience which shall be elaborated later.
Nairobi
Nairobi is quite a scary place. Heard that there's alot of robbery. Please do not travel outside after sunset. Nothing bad happened to us, we were really careful. Every landed property is heavily fenced and barbwired and has security with gun! this includes the foryu chinese restaurant. Wow. Well. We did not really go see the slums, only the richer parts of nairobi, and went to the supermarket and places that expats go. Well. Expensive. Hm. Its nice of xiao gu to accomodate us, and she is really a very good host, I dont host well, need to learn more.
Moshi
Epic bus ride that lasted 10 hours. In this trip the word epic will be used many many times, many many times. Hurhur. come some pics.
Nothing much to say about this bus ride, jus that when u get into tanzania u can feel the difference, the massai pple start coming out in bunches hahaha. Massai training school. hahaha.
Moshi is this small place that is near kilimanjaro, the roof of africa. This, together with Arusha, are two sites where people attack kili from. Haha. We stayed in buffalo hotel in Moshi, and we patronise the indo-italian restaurant opposite every night, nice pizza and nice spags, and nice everything, happy. The mama shop opposite buffalo should be in lonely planet oso, just to make the experience complete. Buffalo was quite an experience, loads of mites and insects, first time i used mosquito net, hahaha. Breakfast was another poleh poleh experience. And ofcus, the black face. waha.
Later we went to eat local foods with the guides, ugali was stopped at 2nd try, there's a chagas' dish that make use of unriped banana, this is very interesting dish, and very nice diblo dish later. hahahaha.
Kili
This is kilimanjaro, dun really think it shows the peak that we wanted to attack, but get a few of the iceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...this picture was taken at the shira camp. We took a 7 day machame route, which makes us much better in acclimatization to get to the peak. Well. i din lah. Haha. The route towards machame camp = SHAG! its mainly rainforest. yep. u jus keep walking, keep walking, keep walking, then there's this clearing area......and a sign that says no smoking..and turn a round and yea its the camp. Haha. SHAG.
The second camp is called Shira camp. I can only describe walking there in one word = SHAG. I cant remember much about walking there, besides...its jus alot of stones..kinda little vegetation..everywhere is everlasting love..SHAG..
the look of clouds from shira camp. hahahaha!
Then its SHAG time! After breakfast in shira camp, we went for a long walk..walk..walk..walk..walk..walk..everlasting love..walk..walk..walk..walk..翻越了千山万水， 我也要找到你呀。。。then after tt some of us decided to attack the lava tower..wahhhhh..wahhhh..wahhhh..wahhhh..wahhhh..ok walk upwards is someday will reach there..wads after tt is most exciting!!..we started to follow this trail of water downwards..jump! jump! jump! jump! jump! later we realised..we were jumping down along a waterfall..wahbiangzzzzzzzzzzzz!!:) Then we finally reached Barangu camp.
After breakfast is even more exciting!! Cos we attacked the breakfast wall!! this was when it really really felt like mountain climbing..i was kinda happy tt i had some mountain climbing exp in RI..but regretted not doing more..well..this is the REAL fun..hahaha jus imagine your eyes looking at the only place where u can step..if u cant step on it, then thats it..and if u look at the other places..tts the end..only 1 step at a time..tts how FUN it is! haha lucky i din die. bleagh.
then after that much more walking along the moon-like surface..walk walk walk walk finally we reached THE BARAFU camp..where the wind blows like freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..Its damn cold..damn windy (we were eating in the tent and the tent was almost blown away)..and i vomitted like freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..wah i nv had my stomach churn and squeeze every single drop of hcl out before..SHAG FUCK!
2am at BARAFU camp, we started on the journey to attack the peak.
手牵手
一步两步三步四步
望著天 看星星
一颗两颗三颗四颗 连成线
背著背默默许下心愿
看远方的星星否听的见
看远方的星如果听的见
它一定实现
I wish..i wish..i wish I PASS MBBS!!!!!
Stella Point is where i end.
hahaha i look qt fat here..bleagh..
Reached stella point at around 1130, by that time the other guys were already attacking Uhuru peak..so din go with them..well..its alright..cos after that is really WTF.
为什么没有人跟我说下山比上山难?!?!?!?!
I think its just because i got too shagged out from climbing up..and my body totally broke down after coming down..bleagh..
Serengeti
Serengeti in swahili means "endless plains"..indeed..after hanging out 3 days in it..we only managed to cover a small area only..indeed endless..the timing that we visit is one of the most boring seasons..not only there's v little tourist around..there's v little movement around..but thanks to good grace we managed to see all the big 5s!:)
Well jus in case you din noe wads the big 5..they are namely..leopard/cheetah, lion, water buffalo, elephant, rhino!!:) haha! Other things we saw are namely giraffes, gazelle, impalas, wilderbeast, mehmehs etc etc etc....and honeymoon lions ROAR!!
Ngorongoro crater
Ngorongoro crater is this roundish crater that was formed after the eruption of a mountain that was thought to be greater than kilimanjaro..it is really a 世外桃园， 人间仙境。 damn good. damn good. animals that come in forgot about going out. plants that come in. thrive. i finally got to understand wad it means by 桃花源。
Subsequently we went to Lake Maryana, wahlan eh the van got stuck. it got stuck. stuck. stuck in a mud pool that was deceptively shallow. well. luckily got fwenly pple driving van to help us pull our van out of deep shit. its really deep shit. hehe.
can u see the change in color in distance..thats the lake extending into infinity..终于和天在地平线交会。
ohohoh..running hippo is one of the most cute things on earth. thats assuming they are running away from you in a distance. well. most scary if its running towards u. Hohoho.
during the trip..i alws wonder why the clouds in africa seems to be more lazy than usual..look at them..they seem to be lingering at a lower altitude than those in singapore..and they linger so lazily..so lazily..poleh poleh..there's no rush in afrika!
Zanzibar
Wah the ship ride to zanzibar island cos 70USD!!! CHOR++++..but i dun regret going..hahaha we went to stay in kendwa..and it really ROCKS! jus that the weather is abit the chuis..
kendwa waters are quite good..but qy says that philipines are better..and cheaper..ofcus..hahaha snorkelling was a good experience..and we saw dolphins! whee!!!
Rest of the trip
In between the many places we shuttle using buses, which are bearable yet unbearable sometimes. there's alws a constant need to hide myself away from the sun to prevent sunburnt. and some of the movies shown along the way really make me laugh. like. not farnie. haha. movies like yellow banana expectation (with the ultra violent rays) and point of no return 2..really hilarious. wow.
doha is just nothing much to do there. ha.
the food in africa is rather interesting. ugali is made of corn flour and is this thing that resembles our satay rice..makes u very very full..comes with nice sauce tho..but i dun really fancy it..there's oso rice..and bread..and this chagas' food which they use unriped banana which i had a hand in trying to peel it..haha qt hard..but interesting..shld haf tou shi abit from diblo..the last night dinner was superb!
during this trip..i also thought about alot of things..i thot about the past relationship..which is already so distant so far..i thot about my ambition..which is on the way of brewing..i thot about my life..which can definitely be better..and i thot about the next 5 years..and settled it..:)
All in all, trip to africa had been a great eye opener..and i did things that i never had imagined myself doing..and dun really imagine i will be doing them in the future..haha..which is good issnt it? for now.:)
Full of mayday in my trip!:)
Cheers!
Yang
right from the start
At this point in time..i wld like to bring time back to the very start of the trip..even before the trip was planned..even before the pple visioned the trip..when i started earning the money that i spent for the trip..for this 3 wks..i spent almost 5.3k sing..this is a very large sum of money to me and i am totally broke now..but i wld jus like to say a very big thank you..even if you dunno its you..thank you to you for directly and indirectly make this trip ever possible..if not becos of you..your help, your encouragement, your understanding, your presence, your support, your scoldings, your love and your leaving..i wld haf not been able to soar..
and jus something that i had wanted to blog but leave it till the end. well. i realised for the first time in my life during this trip that i nid someone to control me..there were 2 significant fwens in my life who had made great difference in my life..and both had scolded me for some reason or another all my foolishness..well..i had more good fwens..but jus these two who really made deep impression in me.............i wonder...
4/22/2010 06:13:00 PM
Saturday, March 27, 2010
过了这么多年...
还是要说这句话...
虽然已经是老掉牙了...
过了明天， 就没事了。
给我个机会吧...我只想要做个好人...
过了明天， 就没事了。
就没事了。。。
3/27/2010 06:22:00 PM
Monday, March 22, 2010
好累好累好累。
遗憾是会呼吸的痛。
没有想念了。 也许只剩下遗憾可言。
好累， 是因为每一次都必须面对他人对我怜悯的目光。 已经没有想念了， 也许只剩下遗憾可言。
遗憾是会呼吸的痛。
希望再也没有遗憾。
遗憾肆意增长， 唯恐天下不乱。
也许连我自己也不再怜悯我自己。
阳。
3/22/2010 09:54:00 PM
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 Labels: 2010, Angel., Brothers, MV, poem, read, song lyrics, 了解了~
Ramblings.
众人笑我太疯癫，我笑众人看不穿
Thats the line.
是否
是否这次我将真的离开你
是否这次我将不再哭
是否这次我将一去不回头
走向那条漫漫永无止境的路
是否这次我已真的离开你
是否泪水已干不再流
是否应验了我曾说的那句话
情到深处人孤独
多少次的寂寞挣扎在心头
只为挽回我将远去的脚步
多少次我忍住胸口的泪水
只是为了告诉我自己
我不在乎
情到深处人孤独
最近看了一篇影评讲说应该先去拜读一下论语， 再回头看老子。 而不是我现在这样。 深得我心。
Yang
3/17/2010 11:53:00 PM
Sunday, February 21, 2010 Labels: 2010, good fwens who scold me, stupid thing i do, 了解了~
谨记谨记。
人言可畏。
谨记谨记
人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏人言可畏
谨记谨记
身败名裂。 家破人亡。
Yang
2/21/2010 10:18:00 PM
Thursday, February 18, 2010
One of the best CNY songs these years:)
Vulgar new year:)
2/18/2010 11:43:00 PM
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
what choice do i haf???:(
2/17/2010 10:45:00 PM
Sunday, February 14, 2010
虎
新年快乐！
很快， 就能够真正的过年了！！过学科的这一年！！！
阳。
2/14/2010 10:45:00 AM
Friday, February 05, 2010
老鼠。
最近拜读了一篇很有趣， 很耐人寻味， 很让我自觉的文章。
说的是男女相爱， 在短暂离别的时候， 没有好好珍惜相处， 却在小动作里鸡蛋挑骨头， 互相猜疑。
老鼠， 那里有老鼠？
既然没有老鼠， 那又何必到处去捉老鼠？
说的是我， 明明就是没有， 什么都不是， 硬要无中生有， 从空气里头抓点什么罪孽出来， 来给世人看看这污秽的世界。
其实， 什么都没有。 是我想太多， 你总这样说。
菩提本无树， 明镜亦非台。
本来无一物， 何处惹尘埃。
耐人寻味， 耐人寻味， 耐人寻味。
2/05/2010 03:10:00 PM
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
清醒一点！！！
好不好！！！
清醒一点！！！！！
清醒一点！！！！
不要一错再错！！！
错错错！！！
想想自己的失败！！
不要一错再错！！！
2/03/2010 10:47:00 PM
Monday, February 01, 2010
知足。
每一刻都会珍惜， 都会把握，
庆幸有你爱我。
阳。
2/01/2010 11:36:00 PM
Sunday, January 31, 2010 Labels: 2010, MV, song lyrics, 了解了~
Is this why?
In the continuous bid to find out the answer to the greatest question in my life, I had been thinking. Thanking about nothing. So I get no answer. It seems this is really why. As spoken by Jolin.
听比说得多 不怕我罗嗦
知道我难过 陪着我沉默
手机桌布只有我 很多甜蜜小动作
自己吃饭没胃口 刷卡之前先问我
喜欢我朋友 也会爱我的狗
懂环保爱地球 保护我像英雄
总是大方介绍我 什么节日都记得
陪我减肥吃苹果 帮我买口红
诚实的嘴 可靠的肩 温柔的眼
会玩会工作 会疯会生活
会下厨会运动 会爱会做梦
又像男孩又成熟 对我大方自己抠
教我绝招打电动 什么都有我
诚实的嘴 可靠的肩 温柔的眼
I had always be wrong. I had always been deficient. Its not good enough to be me. Its not good enough to be myself. Its not good enough to be there. It is about taking over.
Yang
1/31/2010 06:35:00 PM
Wednesday, January 27, 2010 Labels: 2010, Angry., stupid thing i do
Die. Neuro die. Neuro die. Cant recognise sign. Cant integrate sign. Take too much shortcuts. Die. Die. Die. How.
相当然而， 只有从最强的地方彻底摧毁， 才能够变得更强。
想想小鱼。
想想无缺。
想想满楼。
想想小李。
1/27/2010 07:32:00 PM
Friday, January 22, 2010
Poor medical student.
We always laugh at some random medical student. Some random doctor. Some random person. For being such a myopic person. For ignoring the whole picture. For just concentrating on something. That is neither specific nor sensitive. Just one thing. I think. Im already someone who is like that. Whose story if u happen to tell random someone, i will be laughed at. Totally. I thought about it. Its actually about being one track mind. Being one track mind forces you to take in only results that fits into ur one tract thinking. And even if it doesnt fit it also fits. So whats going to happen? Distortion. Yes alright. We don't like distortion. We like a clear picture. To see everything broadly, unbiasedly. How to be unbiased? Ok. Bad. Take a step back, inspection. And u will understand. What it means by follow instructions. Just follow instructions, and you wont go too wrong. Cos that is what she wants you to see. Not what you wan to see some times. But then. U are the candidate. Too bad.
1/22/2010 12:44:00 AM
Saturday, January 16, 2010
签签签
学业
28签
東方月上正嬋娟，頃刻雲遮月半邊
莫道圓時還又缺，須教缺處復重圓
阴晴圆缺， 从来就不用在意。 只要努力不懈， 自强不息， 就能如太阳般发出万丈光芒。
事业
93
鸞鳳翎毛雨壓垂，此時應被雀輕欺
忽朝一日雲霄霽，依舊還教振羽衣
别随波逐流， 相信自己的理想， 坚持自己的梦想。 有一天， 一定会到的。 小李飞刀。
爱情
89签
出入營謀大吉昌，無瑕玉在石中藏
如今幸得高人指，獲寶從心喜不常
有石中美玉， 只是高人何在？ 我该怎么办？
1/16/2010 11:42:00 PM
Friday, January 15, 2010
尘劳回脱事非常，
紧把绳头做一场；
不经一番寒彻骨，
那得梅花扑鼻香。
1/15/2010 09:15:00 PM